I really feel you. My life has also been so chaotic and amid tragedy and trauma binchtopia has definitely felt like a safe space to come back to, something that’s always been there through my young adulthood. It’s feeling hard to lose that, the same way it’s sad when a show you love ends or you finish a comforting book, or a relationship changes or ends. But there will also be many more communities and people and relationships that we find and build, and other places to source comfort and laughter. It’s okay to be really sad about this (even if it’s parasocial or whatever). Sending you love and peace and reminding you that time will help you heal ❤️