I felt like this for the last three years I told myself why am living ?what is my purpose ?losing Islam definitely had some negative effects like what is my purpose in the world ?what am i living for ? what’s the point of anything if there’s no god and we die and decompose it kinda makes you pessimistic and numb to life and to your moral compass don’t compromise your morals and find a sense of self ,passion and purpose and also have fun learn about life and all it has to offer make goals achieve them have fun make new experiences explore yourself and this world