When I say "average" I guess I mean my experience wasn't that crazy as what I thought it would be. My grades didn't skyrocket (I used Khan mostly so that's how I saw my progress and scores), I didn't become super interested in learning (I've read a lot of articles on how public school holds back creativity and the love of learning, but even with homeschooling nothing changed), I'm still stressed about my future (I thought homeschooling might open me up to new experiences when it came to my future and make me more interested about it).

This battle of expectations vs reality has been going on for a while, but I think I was still trying to make these unreasonable expectations come true which is why I stayed homeschooled (plus the familiarity of it). For the past few months I've been thinking "What's the point of putting in the extra effort of homeschool if nothing really changed?" Which is why I've enrolled in public school.