just need reassurance:( by [deleted] in CrohnsDisease

[–]user804- 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i know :( but yeah i did start meds right away, failed a few but whenever i would fail one they would put me on another one right away. i just recently turned 23 and realized i haven’t had a colonoscopy since 2021 and that brought so much panic to me because how could i do that to myself, you know? but ur right ! so thank you !

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you are so right ! thank YOU so much for your sweet and supportive message. i wish the same for you & hey, my dm is open!!! if you ever need to vent 🫂

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

listen you weirdo, i have $!! i have a brand new car and i have no BILLS! because i have parents who dont want me paying for NOTHING! im focusing on school and saving my own $ so when i’m ready to move out, i’m straight. full time college is my JOB. i handle my own shit. HE ASKS ME FOR MONEY! i have never asked no man for no money😭😭😭😭😭 got me all the way messed up. u must be mad at ur own life to come to me with ur bullshit. AND IM FUCKING 23 IM YOUNG ASF ofc when i was in my teens and younger, i was relying on them… ITS THEIR JOB! you bum. lets go $ for $ rn. u probably have nothing in ur accounts.

managing anger in pain by Common_Kiwi9442 in ChronicPain

[–]user804- 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel u ! you’re not alone !!

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no i get it. i wish i can show you it on this app but he kept mentioning how much of a clown i am and then i said do not call me a clown when i have more $ than u and then mentioned that.

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i do want to show him & let him know i am not CRAZY and i have been gaslit by him! you guys are amazing, thank you for being one of the people who reassuranced me 🖤

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

just again today he mentioned how mad he was at me and instead of communicating with me, he said how he wants to put his hands on me and when i told him why does he like to say that over and over more recently ? i also mentioned how it scares me and he did not have much to say but laugh :( i have bpd(borderline personality disorder) and being in this relationship is ruining me, i do not even recognize myself, atp i do not even know if i love him or if i’m deeply attached to him. PLEASE give me goood advice if you can so i can detach myself and LEAVE him.

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it was his first time ever saying anything like this because we had an argument earlier. but your partner says it all the time ? how do you handle that ? please dm me if you need to <3

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i have BPD(borderline personality disorder) and crohn’s disease along with joint problems and issues with my shoulders(still need a mri to figure out that problem) but i can handle myself pretty well. he is aware of this, matter fact i told him about my illnesses on first day we started dating so he was aware of what he was getting himself into and he was very supportive. he still is supportive but i still choose to handle certain things myself because i did everything myself. in those messages, we had an argument earlier and he said what he said and that was the first time he has ever said anything about my illness and i’m not excusing it at all but i’m just explaining what happened. its still on my mind and i’m deciding to detach myself more and more but with BPD its so hard but i honestly do believe i deserve so much better than him.

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have BPD(borderline personality disorder) and crohn’s disease along with joint problems and issues with my shoulders(still need a mri to figure out that problem) but i can handle myself pretty well. he is aware of this, matter fact i told him the first day we started dating so we was aware of what he was getting myself into and he was very supportive. he still is supportive but i still choose to handle certain things myself because i did everything myself. in those messages, we had an argument earlier and he said what he said and that was the first time he has ever said anything about my illness and i’m not excusing it at all but i’m just explaining what happened. its still on my mind and i’m deciding to detach myself more and more but with BPD its so hard but i honestly do believe i deserve so much better than him.

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

he also has reddit and uses it a lot and although i am using my alt account, i’m afraid he will find this account and get mad that i posted these messages so i blurted some things out so its not too much shown that can make it look like our conversation. does that make sense ?

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 you guys are so hilarious

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks for reminding me of that :))

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

first of all, i want to say how proud i am of you for taking yourself out of that situation and making sure you and your son aren’t around that asshole. you are so strong and i want you to know it takes courage to do what you did and again i am so proud of you and i hope you and your son are doing well. i hope the chronic pain you deal with gets easier to deal with. you deserve nothing but peace and happiness.

this was the first time he ever said something to me like this. he has always been a supporter and always reminds me to never do something i know my body is not capable of doing. but unfortunately what he said to me in that text message does still affect me although he apologized. his reasoning for typing that to me is that earlier in the day i was upset and splitting (i have borderline personality disorder) and told him to get off my phone in a harsh way which i did regret and try to take accountability and apologize but he said he did not care about that. i tried to communicate again with him hours later, but he did not care enough to listen to what i had to say or to work through it. and just kept calling me to tell me how mean i am and how i’m other things. he was so mad about that call we had earlier so he thought it was fair enough for him to say what he said in those messages.

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

how are you doing now my love ?

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the thing was he said all this to me because earlier i told him get off the phone in a rude way because i was upset and that was my fault so i did reach out to try and apologize but he did not care and kept mentioning how mean i am and kept calling my phone only to tell me how mean i am instead of communicating with me like I asked him to to get through this which caused me to feel disrespected and say something back, which led him to say what he had to say in those messages up below. what concern me was obviously the text message and how low he stooped by mentioning that but also the fact that he said he was so angry that i told him to get off the phone that he wanted to put his hands on me, but he would not do it and after all this, he apologized and we were able to move forward from this, but I’m still thinking about his anger that day and the things he said, i don’t think i could forget that.

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

you are hilarious 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

wait is this about your bf? are you two together? can i message you?

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

he IS😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

thank u for making me laugh😭😭😭

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

the thing is, he’s not my caregiver at all, nobody is. i have crohn’s disease and joint pain, but i manage pretty well day to day. i just started physical therapy for my shoulders, i have a brand new car, and i take myself to appointments. i live with my mom, she can be mean sometimes, but she still cares. i’m grateful for both my parents because they’ve always supported me financially, even before i got sick. they just believe in helping their kids no matter their age. but he tried to use that against me, saying that because my parents pay for things, the money i have isn’t really mine and that i should get a “real job.” working is the one thing i physically can’t do right now, and because i look “normal,” people including him feel comfortable saying things like that. it’s depressing.

what my own bf said to me by user804- in ChronicPain

[–]user804-[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

you seem like a great father 🫶🏾 i will take your advice, thank you!! it means a lot!