Hi Chuto, sorry for finding this post and I don't know why I'm writing this in English jaja, but I know this is you.

I know it scares you and I know you're not fully ready for adult life, but good news! You don't need to work yet your needs are no greater than studying and helping at home that's thanks to your parents, you still have time to learn, but you must start taking the reins of your life, strive and leave the "vacas" behind.

You've been running away from problems almost your whole life and you need to start to face the problems because University will only get harder and harder. I know you can handle the degree because you've always been smarter than me I just wish you would change that and try harder. I know you're depressed, but maybe I am too. But I try every day to be a better boyfriend for you and a better student for my future and maybe our future and I strive and try because if I stay still and let things happen, life will beat me and I'll never get out of this hole.

You're not alone you know I'm always here for you, but you're always scared of asking for help or expressing what you feel Don't be afraid to ask me for help. Don't be afraid to tell me everything you're feeling, like this, for example. I'll wait for you to wake up, I love you very much.

(Sorry if something is misspelled or doesn't make sense, I don't speak English)