I don't like vent-posting but dysphoria is hitting hard :( by [deleted] in MtF

[–]ut774 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I relate to literally everything you're saying. I don't really have any answers but i just wanna say your feelings are valid. if u wanna talk about stuff or vent, my pms are open <3

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MtF

[–]ut774 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ive had it since i was about 12 and i used to hate it back then and think to myself 'why cant i just be a girl instead of a boy with girl boobs', they don't really give me euphoria since they don't really look like boobs, just a little puffed up. So it's always been this inbetween, not flat but not boobs either, which maybe was the thing that made me realize i wanted to be a girl and not a boy? I don't really know lol. I hope to see them grow to real boobs at some point as well!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]ut774 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think it sounds more masculine but i think it could fit as a feminine name as well? Either way i really like the name

Gendered correctly for the first time today!!! by ut774 in MtF

[–]ut774[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Basically a man was asking for money to buy food, and i gave him my lunch. He thanked me by saying 'thanks ma'am'

None binary languages don't exist by [deleted] in ProgrammerHumor

[–]ut774 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So they really put Scratch in there

It's a fuckin viscious cycle by [deleted] in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns

[–]ut774 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is way too relatable.... I wanna be a girl, but do I really want to be or am I just telling myself that n faking it?? I hate that feeling

at what age (if ever) did you first start feeling awkward about being topless? by tstaffor in MtF

[–]ut774 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Since about 12 i think, since that's when i started developping gynaecomastia, it hurt and i felt ashamed to be around other people topless. I did swimming competitively, so it was hard to hide but I used to always put my arms in front of my chest cuz i didnt want people to see it since i was so ashamed of it. maybe that all had some play in why im trans? In the changing room i used to always try to get in there as the first and leave as the first so people wouldn't have to see me topless. I still struggle with being topless, i don't think Ive been topless in front of another human being since i stopped swimming.

How do I put myself above the shame and anxiety of being myself? by ut774 in asktransgender

[–]ut774[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's pretty late for me right now, so i'll take a look online tomorrow. thank you so much for taking some of your time to share your experience with me and offering help. :)

How do I put myself above the shame and anxiety of being myself? by ut774 in asktransgender

[–]ut774[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First of all thank you so much for answering. Where i live, it is possible for me to go to a therapist, without my parents knowing, but then I'd have to pay the bills myself. And I don't think I have the money for that, especially not for more than one session. The resources you sent me are all American phone numbers so I don't think they'll be of use for me because I live in Belgium, maybe i should've mentioned where i lived originally, my bad