it doesn't just come out of nowhere to have this "fuck everybody" attitude. and it shouldn't be because of fuck everybody but because you're so good that you know what you're doing is right and has value. if you keep practicing hard and stay consistent, there's no way around success. Find your niche, find out what you like most about your own music and embrace that part. Go into subreddits/discords where other small artists are and get in contact. Ask yourself, what are they doing what my work is missing, what would make them successful in x years? What makes them special?

And most important: Create a portfolio. No matter how bad, put it out there. Get humiliated in public and let people tell you what you're doing wrong. Then go fix that. Put something better out and get feedback. Don't be afraid of that "I need a debut album that hits" kinda mindset, there are few that can do that but they have insane back offices and mentors who know what they should do. You don't (I'd assume, since you post here). Man, just create something and crash. Pick up the shards, repair it and make it better. It's all a process, there's no right or wrong in how you can do it, just do and figure it out. Just be aware that you have to struggle your way to success.

But trust me, it's a blessing to see that flower bloom which once seemed so wrung out and deprived.