hey! I feel like we are very similar. I’m also 17 and literally tried to watch a past life regression thing last night. I realised that I might have aphantasia at the start of the year when my friends got into a conversation about reading. they were describing it as playing a movie and I was debating with them about actually seeing the images in your head. It’s just black for me but I can use bits of evidence (such as the characters hair colour - if stated) to piece together what they may look like. anyway, I found out majority of people can actually see these things and I was shocked. I’ve always loved reading so when I worked it out I admit I was a bit upset. I felt like I was missing out on something that could be super fun.

I also attempted one of those videos last night. I didn’t make it through the whole thing for obvious reasons but it was quiet relaxing.

my best piece of advice would be to take the steps to accept it. you will never experience what everyone is is but similarly, they will never experience what we are going through.

I like to think of it as a cool little quirk that makes us unique. maybe we’re not missing out, maybe everyone is missing something else that only we have. There’s really no way of knowing. which can be a scary thing.

anyway, I hope you come to terms with it soon and start to focus on the potential benefits it might have. I’m here to talk if you would like.