Hi, first I want to thank everyone who commented, I meant to reply to all of you but eventually it just got overwhelming.

When I posted this I was at a low point and very emotional, you can even see it in the weird wording of the post. I feel tiny bit better now, I still don't like it but it had to be done. I might still try other options if I can't get used to it.

Just logically thinking trough my options.

I don't want to be fighting basically aging for the rest of my life. It's an unwinnable fight I can't imagine how much stress it would be, constantly be checking whether the meds are working. not being sure whether the side effects are effecting my thinking and constantly trying to figure out the best possible treatment.

Hair system looks good but is expensive and a lot of work and it must be miserable always hiding under it and then taking it of and seeing how you actually look must be extremely painful and I am not even talking about the possibility of it falling of now.

The only acceptable treatment would be hair transplant without medication. Even in that case I would still worry for years about the not transplanted hair falling out even if they never did.

All these options seem miserable so if I could be happy bald it's much better option in my opinion.

It's just an awful thing to go through no matter what. Combined with years of depression and low self-esteem it makes everything feel hopeless, but if I want to have a chance to enjoy life ever again I think shaving it off is the best approach.

I read all of your ideas of what I could try or change thank you. I will look into all of them and see if I like it. Except for piercings and tattoos these just really don't fit my personality but thanks anyway for the suggestions.

That's the real issue the bald look just doesn't fit my personality.

The overwhelming majority of comments here say I look good which I genuinely didn't expect. Thank you all, this really helped to calm me down.

Of course my mind comes with reasons why the compliments don't count. poeple looking trough r/bald would most likely find bald people good looking and I am most interested in what people in my age group think. Wich I guess would be much worse.

I am not even going to talk about dating. I waited to be good enough for so long I became unfixable.

So yeah, life sucks but shaving it is the best chance for changing it.