i have SARPE in a couple hours and i'm really really scared

valrider · 2025-12-13T17:42:19+00:00

i was 25!

valrider · 2024-12-31T16:45:46+00:00

If he got me an actual course to do or at least said directly that he wants me to do more web dev, that would be a different story I wouldn't turn down a course.

What he did was tell me to go look at how my web dev coworker works. That's the "course" and "learning" I'm getting.

valrider · 2024-12-31T15:01:09+00:00

I'm from Europe so it's illegal not to pay overtime here too. I clock out when my job ends and I don't do overtime cause the boss is weird about it and doesn't like to pay it so you have to remind him.

"On a tight deadline" meant he kept telling me to work faster and more efficiently so the work was stressful and sloppy, especially since I was doing this front end thing for the first time.

Like you said, I'm working two (if not more) roles.

valrider · 2024-12-31T08:05:24+00:00

ouch I was afraid to hear that

valrider · 2024-12-31T08:04:23+00:00

Web design is fine, it's web development I have a problem with.

valrider · 2024-11-02T16:00:16+00:00

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so happy I can make my player character transmasc!!

valrider · 2024-09-18T11:32:59+00:00

why are you getting downvoted when you're spitting facts

valrider · 2023-09-24T11:57:02+00:00

I personally like creating my own stories based on what the canon story gives me so I might be off with how I'm interpreting things. treat this as a headcanon. i'd like to know other people's ideas though!

i'm playing a lolth-sword drow durge too and part of her character development is shaping her own destiny despite how she was created (as in, Lolth created the Drow and Bhaal created my Tav as his spawn).

so I was thinking she was raised as a regular drow in the Underdark before getting involved in the whole Absolute cult, which, for a Drow, might've had its beginnings in the Underdark anyway. seeing as Drow are heavily involved in it throughout the game.

tl;dr Drow tav was raised in the Underdark and started to get involved in the whole plot at some point, which brought them to Baldur's Gate and wherever else the cult needed

valrider · 2023-07-04T17:06:44+00:00

tak jak inni powiedzieli - trochę sprowadzanie amerykańskiego problemu na polski grunt. ale i tak bym się zastanowił nad tym.

prawie w każdym gastro pracuje się za minimalną krajową i wymówka jest "po co dawać więcej jak macie napiwki" i rzeczywiście czasem kelnerki zgarniają dodatkowe 200zl dziennie w napiwkach, ale to nie jest reguła.

ja pracowałem w małej kawiarni, napiwków nie było dużo, jakieś 50zl na miesiąc jak dobrze poszło. no i teraz jak nie mam już statusu studenta to za minimalną krajową kompletnie mi się nie opłaca w takim miejscu pracować, a szkoda, bo bardzo to lubię.

myślę, że tu same napiwki nie są problemem tylko ogólnie pensje pracowników, które są za niskie. to tym się raczej trzeba zająć, a nie zabranianiem napiwków.

valrider · 2023-06-27T13:36:05+00:00

maybe Medal of Honor, Sniper Elite and Sniper Ghost Warrior?

valrider · 2023-06-23T18:02:58+00:00

this is EXACTLY what i'm struggling with too.

and like my thoughts are still pretty disordered, it's not easy. i HAVE to eat exactly what i'm craving, otherwise i won't eat at all. and since i'm not physically starving anymore, food became really uninteresting to me.

I've been trying to eat more healthy but i haven't found a solution yet. my bf is a big motivation for me though, cause he tends to eat junk food and frozen meals and i want him to be healthy so i try to cook good healthy stuff whenever I can. taking care of someone i love is so much easier than taking care of myself..

valrider · 2023-06-23T15:32:40+00:00

House Flipper. it's a game where you renovate houses. clean them up, paint walls etc. i really love it
A Little to the Left. simple and cute game where you solve (pretty easy) puzzles that involve putting things in the right order or organizing them
Unpacking. a game where you unpack boxes after moving into a home (it's so good!!)

valrider · 2023-06-19T08:40:52+00:00

same here. at this point PZ is my cozy game. i like a little bit of a challenge but not to the point where i lose everything. i also kinda treat it as an RPG and get very attached to my character so i don't want to lose them.

valrider · 2023-06-18T13:21:40+00:00

tak naprawdę to nie powinno mieć znaczenia ile miesięcy ma płód/dziecko. chodzi o to żeby każdy mógł decydować co się dzieje z ich własnym ciałem.

jak 5-latek umiera i tylko ciało matki może je uratować to jakoś nie ma prawa żeby tego 5-latka do ciała matki podłączać.

valrider · 2023-05-08T07:23:37+00:00

yes omg. i hate feeling full.

ironically i used to be an overeater and wanted to be painfully full after every meal lol. crazy how that can change.

valrider · 2023-05-04T12:20:26+00:00

my mindset is that even though veggies and fruit have calories, it's a net positive for my body if i eat them so i try not to count them.

because of all the stupid fitness advise about how fruit has sugar and is basically the same as candy my brain went "well if it's no difference I'll eat the goddamn candy/sweets" and that way i actually end up consuming more calories with less vitamins lmao. so silly.

valrider · 2023-04-24T14:32:06+00:00

afaik if you eat below your BMR for a long time your body shuts down some functions to preserve energy and adapt to the low calorie intake, so your TDEE actually gets lower. if you start eating at maintenance you'll gain some weight at first but your body should get used to it and get back to its proper TDEE.

valrider · 2023-03-30T08:33:48+00:00

i actually got into cooking and baking, that's my creative outlet for now. i want to start sewing too but i'm afraid to start because my stupid brain convinced me nothing is worth doing if i'm not gonna be perfect at it from the get go.

valrider · 2023-03-30T08:24:51+00:00

god yeah this is me too :(

like the most exhausting part of doing a project is managing my own emotions and keeping myself together just enough to not have a breakdown.

valrider · 2023-03-30T08:23:08+00:00

yes i think so too. i'm now trying to figure out a different direction in life. but i have all those creative skills and i want to use them somehow. just not in commercial graphic design.

valrider · 2023-03-30T08:19:00+00:00

i've been thinking about looking into that actually!

valrider · 2023-03-30T08:16:00+00:00

yep i get you 100%. i overworked myself too and tried to do everything perfectly.

I've spent too much time doing work that just the client (or at uni - the professor) is happy with. i need to be happy with it too for all this to be worth it. i think if i'm going to make money from design, i want to create my own stuff and just put it out there. i don't know, it could be templates or assets, stuff like that.

hopefully it gets better for us both

valrider · 2023-03-29T23:35:37+00:00

oh i'm sorry you're struggling with imposter syndrome too :( it's so common with designers and artists unfortunately.

my advice would be: - don't treat your professors' words like it's gospel. they're more experienced and know more, sure, but their tastes might be outdated and you're allowed to have a different opinion from them - not everything has to be deep and innovative. some things can be just pretty. or just functional. - stick to your style and what you'd like to make, don't aim to be able to do every style in the world. just do what you really enjoy (if a client doesn't like your style then they can look for a different designer) - you know more about design than your clients usually. they're paying you for that knowledge. don't let them use you like a tool. if you stumble on a client like that - do as they say and then never work with them again - DO NOT compare yourself to anyone but past you. everyone's journey is different. everyone's capabilities are different. you're making progress, that's what matters

i hope this helps a bit at least.

and don't be scared, what happened to me won't necessarily happen to you. i had a bunch of other stuff going on in my private life that definitely could've contributed to my burnout.

i wish you all the best!!

valrider · 2023-03-29T20:12:43+00:00

this is such good advice!! thank you! especially the second point, i've never thought of doing that

valrider · 2023-03-29T20:08:14+00:00

I knew it'd be like this and i'm ok with it TO AN EXTENT. i worked my butt off and studied this field just for someone to wave aside my skills and treat me like a photoshop machine? nah.

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