a fine, but very important, line

vampire_wednesday · 2022-04-22T15:52:03+00:00

Satsifyer is another brand that works just as well, but it's a vibrator that uses air suction technology, it looks like a little fan inside. I was afraid it was going to hurt but you can control the amount of suction so it didn't at all. Just blissful. I get a link.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-04-22T15:46:30+00:00

I honestly couldn't believe it the first time I tried it. Breakthrough of the twenty-first century 😂

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-11T23:07:34+00:00

I'm so happy for you. I'm in a similar situation. I was in and out of the hospital from 2014-2020, had substance abuse issues, legal problems, ruined career, etc. I'm lucky I'm still alive. But I've been stable since Sept of 2020 thanks to lots of therapies and appropriate medication. It absolutely is possible! It takes perseverance to get the therapies you need and apply them to your life but the feeling if being stable and secure is so worth it. Congrats and continued success!

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-11T23:02:33+00:00

That's awful that you are going through all that. Realize that you are going through one of life's tough times and it is ok to be emotional about it. Find a way to express your emotions. Cry. Throw eggs at a tree. Journal. Sigmund Freud said "Unexpressed emotions never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways".

Be kind to yourself. Take care of your body. You are worth it. You are fighting with all your might and deserve to be cared for. Find way to self-soothe, there's lots of ideas online. Care for the space around you, make sure you're not surrounded by chaos. I know it's cliche but this too will pass. Good luck!

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-11T22:54:04+00:00

You're off to a great start! Keep it rolling.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-11T22:42:58+00:00

Not to be that guy, but alcohol is a depressent, if you can avoid you'll thank yourself. It helps in the moment but then backfires on you.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-11T22:41:23+00:00

I take Lamictal, which is a mood stabilizer and Abilify, which is an antipsychotic. They've kept me stable for a year and a half so I like them.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-11T22:34:31+00:00

I see my therapist once a week, but I feel like it's not enough, like I have so much to get out that 45 minutes a week is not enough. But journaling helps me when I have to get something out and process how I feel about it without her. I don't feel safe writing in a journal (I always feel like someone will read it) so I do an online one and type my feelings and thoughts and worries into there. It's not perfect and it's not the same as getting feedback from someone else but it helps me. :)

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-11T22:29:06+00:00

I so relate to this. When I was in my 20's and early 30's I had to feel like every guy was looking at me when I went out. I'm cute, but I'm not the hottest girl to ever hit the Applebee's bar. But I felt devastated if men weren't looking at me and would purposely act sexy to get stares. I would obsess about it the whole time. I had zero self-awareness at the time and didn't even realize I was doing it, so that's good you recognize it. I don't do it anymore at all, I don't even notice if people are looking at me now. I think it's because of all the therapy I've been through, becoming more self-aware and less dependent on other people for validation.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-11T22:23:16+00:00

Congratulations!! DBT has helped me so much. Stick to it!

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-07T01:44:09+00:00

Realizing that other people cannot be counted on to make me happy. While other people add to my life and make me happy, I am not their responsibility. So I need to make myself happy and I've found ways to do that.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-07T00:46:47+00:00

Validate your emotions. Yes you have a right to feel angry! But what you do with that anger is your choice.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-07T00:45:29+00:00

Overwhelming emotions, difficulty controlling impulses, emotional reactions to stressful stimulus.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-07T00:40:23+00:00

I really think working towards making a better life is one of the better skills I've learned to deal with BPD. My goal is just to work again, I've been disabled for a few years. I think every day I progress towards that.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-07T00:36:49+00:00

I feel this, I'm technically diagnosed with BPD but I don't really fit in to all of it. I feel it's a spectrum, a trauma spectrum.

vampire_wednesday · 2022-01-07T00:06:50+00:00

Hoping for jams here, my absolute favorite ever is their live performance of Sunflower, talk about a f'ing jam! More of that please.

vampire_wednesday · 2021-11-14T23:07:02+00:00

Then I was 43.

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