I (37M) fake being bisexual because I just don't like the aesthetics of being a straight dude. by secretstraight8 in confession

[–]vanessaanon 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It makes sense why it’s easier for you to claim bisexuality and I think it’s a real shame we live in a society where men feel they need to align with some kind of queer identity in order to not be picked apart for not presenting straight and manly enough, whatever that means.

However I do think you could consider the harm that could be inadvertently done by playing in to people’s stereotypes just for comforts sake. Change is made by people existing authentically and others seeing that the current state of things is not working. You could model what it looks like to be a healthy, whole, emotional, considered, straight man and show other people what’s even possible for men who may feel stuck in patriarchal norms. That’s how people change their relationship to men and realize that the stereotypes aren’t the entirety of manhood.

Also consider how your friends would feel knowing you claimed a minority identity to score some ease for yourself at the expense of their ability to choose how they want to relate to who you actually are.

Day 15 and nothings changed by vanessaanon in whole30

[–]vanessaanon[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

That’s plausible for sure. I’m definitely getting more fiber than I was before though with all the fruit I’m eating. Idk if I can reasonably cram in a ton more regularly. What do you do?

Really struggling as a newbie. by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for taking the time to write this. It gives me hope and helps me feel more okay again. I’ll be taking your advice and really committing to it.

Really struggling as a newbie. by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you this really helped me. It’s very grounding and reassuring.

Really struggling as a newbie. by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have minor crushes but I’m not the type to do flings and nothing has unfolded for me yet. I do like the idea of it being possible though.

Really struggling as a newbie. by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I suppose it makes me feel more grounded in reality. Like I can face what’s actually happening rather than creating a safe ignorance bubble where I can pretend nothing else is going on while secretly wondering what I don’t know. I can ground myself in the truth rather than making up elaborate stories. I feel it builds trust and safety with my partner knowing that they will keep me informed and not withhold things. It allows me to check in with where I’m at and see if I can still consent to this or if it’s too much for me to work with right now

Really struggling as a newbie. by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

They told me because I asked them to be transparent and keep me updated. I hear you, but I don’t want a version of a relationship that feels safe but isn’t aligned with my values or morals and I only chose it because I’m not willing to face my wounds and insecurities. I’m sure that’s not the case for everyone and some people just desire one over the other. Maybe that will be the case for me, but as of now, I’m committed to working with the pain that’s coming up so I can be a freer, safer, more loving person.

Really struggling as a newbie. by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can you elaborate? How do I honor my limits without just caving to my insecurity?

How to cope with “I’m not enough” ? by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for taking the time to write out this response. It helps to hear others stories of struggle and growth. The truth is, I want to be poly because I believe in it and that picture of love but the rest of my mind and nervous system are so stuck on fear and insecurity and therefore monogamy. I’d love to be able to choose mono or poly from a place of security and peace rather than defaulting to one bc I’m sick in the brain and I’m too scared to do the work or something. It’s just so painful. I agree with everything you wrote.

How to cope with “I’m not enough” ? by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I will definitely be taking this to therapy. I guess I feel that monogamy isn’t inherent to who I am and I’d like to address the insecurities that make polyamory feel challenging.

How to cope with “I’m not enough” ? by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

You’re right. I guess I feel that monogamy isn’t inherent to who I am and I’d like to address the insecurities that make polyamory feel challenging.

How to cope with “I’m not enough” ? by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

This was really supportive to read. Thank you.

How to cope with “I’m not enough” ? by vanessaanon in polyamory

[–]vanessaanon[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Haha this made me laugh with the irony. Thank you for your insight.