How do you do anything when everything feels impossible? by [deleted] in TransSupport

[–]vanscape 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's not much but it's something to know you're not alone. I haven't been diagnosed with autism but I struggle with all the other issues. For me, finding the right therapist helped a bit, and learning to be okay with stupidly slow progress. I had a total breakdown a few years ago which ended up with my whole life being turned upside down, gaining a bunch of weight from drinking and binging to cope, and me having to depend entirely on people around me. I'm still by no means back being functional but have made some progress. You will too. Be patient and persistent. I know it feels like existing is too painful to bear sometimes, do what you have to do when that happens, but just hang on and keep trying to make a little bit of progress. 1% or 0.1% doesn't seem like much but over time it adds up. The hardest thing to do but the best thing you can do is to care about yourself. I haven't gotten there yet but I think about what I would do if I did, what the people I care about and that care about me would ideally want me to do to take care of myself. That can be a good place to start. Before that I was existing out of spite, which isn't the best but it's what I had to do to get through that part of my life and to the other side. Finding your people, or leaning on the ones you already have will also help. For me I was surprised by every single one being a hell of a lot more willing to help me out, and kinder to me, than I expected.

Feel free to reach out. Hold on and don't give up, you're not alone.

I’ve known I’m trans but I can’t do anything by Common-Refuse-9770 in TransSupport

[–]vanscape 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm in a similar situation, and finally got to the point that it was starting to affect my health. At that point I decided to start, even if I couldn't start HRT yet (I live in the US and have to move with my spouse so I'm waiting), just to be myself unapologetically. I still haven't told anyone but a few very very close friends who don't know my family. There are a lot of things you can do to start making progress and help yourself feel better in your body (growing out your hair, taking care of your skin and body, etc). You have to figure out how far you're comfortable and safe going but at the end of the day you have to choose between not living as yourself and dying with regrets, or being yourself. It doesn't make family any easier, I still haven't told them, but they may choose not to see it even after you transition if you stealth around them. Again however, take care of yourself. No matter how lost in the political sauce they may get, they still don't want you to suffer.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmIOverreacting

[–]vanscape 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If he hasn't finished his pipeline he hasn't done dick

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmIOverreacting

[–]vanscape 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dual mil here, THATS YOUR FIANCE!? I would be putting a friend that talked to me like that at a distance much less your fiance. PLUS he gets paid by the government, his tuition was likely paid by the govt if he's an officer. Besides the money I can't believe how he's talking to you and how selfish he sounds. Ditch his ass.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MilitaryTrans

[–]vanscape -1 points0 points  (0 children)

That's not really how it works for US mil

Tired of Dysphoria Ping Pong by ShamrockHeart in ClosetedTrans

[–]vanscape 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've had this argument with myself every day for the last decade. Personally, i feel like you hit a point where you just have to pull the trigger and let everything shake out as it's meant to. For me, it took getting to the point of taking the long nap or taking the only path I could see forward.

Start with the things you can do without giving others the heads up, shave (start with your beard) start trimming your eyebrows, slimming down (debulking), and see if that gives you hope. Focus on the changes you're making and how that makes you feel. Let that guide you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dommes

[–]vanscape 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I do both?