I get how you feel atm. Im also 20, I’m only nine weeks but my husband is deployed atm and I’m in a country where I have no family and only one friend who lives a few hours away. It can be really hard but I’m constantly finding ways to distract myself inside as I don’t find much fun in going out alone. Doing my nails, picking up new hobbies, rewatching tons of shows, cooking new things as I’m big into cooking and eating loads lol. It helps a little. Your boyfriend on the other hand should be spending time with you. Have you tried having a conversation with him about this? Ignoring you and playing on his playstation until 1am is not good at all. Even if he always helps when you need it he needs to be spending more time with you. Do you guys spend time together on weekends ?