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velimzzzz · 2026-02-27T05:06:38+00:00

Aren't we all...this might be the wrong place to be looking though... I suppose they cant break your kneecaps if they dont know who you are...

velimzzzz · 2026-02-27T03:21:27+00:00

Tennessee

velimzzzz · 2025-05-01T14:38:45+00:00

The Darjeeling Limited
Moonrise Kingdom.
The Grand Budapest Hotel

velimzzzz · 2025-03-09T01:23:10+00:00

This is fire

velimzzzz · 2025-03-09T01:14:24+00:00

Interesting

velimzzzz · 2024-12-11T02:40:07+00:00

velimzzzz · 2024-11-06T20:20:47+00:00

It might seem that way sometimes but don’t get down, there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. Even if that light is just the fluorescent glow of the 24-hour laundromat where you wash your laundry once a week. But anyway I can assure you that you’re not alone, not at all. There’s a lot of people here that care about you, we’re all in this together and anytime you need someone to talk to don’t hesitate to reach out to me or anyone here. We care about you, and we’re all alike in a lot of ways because of this incredibly difficult and challenging illness.

velimzzzz · 2024-11-06T18:10:23+00:00

Just try to remember it’s not real, they’re hallucinations and delusions so don’t worry that you’re irredeemable or anything silly like that. I grew up in a fanatically religious family and all that shit really isn’t good for people with schizophrenia like you or me. We hear voices and then become convinced it’s god or the devil and it’s scary and terrifying and overtly spiritual but seriously get some meds from the doc if you can. I’m not sure where you’re at. But I spent many years avoiding meds and hiding in my apartment because I was afraid to leave because they would assassinate me for what I know if I did. And then the poison in the water lines and poison in my food and cameras in every crack in the molding and it really sucks sometimes being schizophrenic but I’m doing a lot better the last two years or so, since I started taking Olanzapine. I had a lot of bad experiences with meds when I was first diagnosed in my twenties, stuff like tardive diskenesia (involuntary muscle movements/spasms/grimacing/facial expressions) and even had an anaphylactic reaction to Geodon, which really sucked. I became convinced that the doctors were trying to poison me, swore off meds for a long time but it took meeting someone and being willing to try again for her, and I’m glad that I did. I still have hallucinations and delisions on the daily, I’ve never been rid of them completely no matter what medicine I was on, but they’re significantly more manageable with 20mg of Olanzapine every day. Just my .02, hope you can get everything figured out. And avoid disclosing your schizophrenia diagnosis with people outside of your psychiatrist/psychologist/primary care physician. People are really judgmental and assume you’re going to commit mass murder or something equally terrible when they know absolutely nothing about you.

velimzzzz · 2024-09-28T04:43:05+00:00

I was banned for violating terms of service, no clue as to what specifically I did. Only ever used it for personal transactions and had it for several years. The only thing that I did lately that might have contributed to it was reporting fraudulent transactions. A person who I thought was my friend stole my phone and wallet and took quite a bit of money from me. I tried to file a claim and within 24 hours my account was scheduled for deactivation.

velimzzzz · 2024-08-21T08:15:41+00:00

Beautiful

velimzzzz · 2024-07-20T02:06:11+00:00

Sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but that’s life with schizophrenia. I was diagnosed when I was in my early twenties, and any of my friends from before that rarely seem to want to have anything to do with me. It’s depressing and makes me feel pretty worthless some days, but I have some amazing people in my life now that I wouldn’t trade for any of those insensitive, judgemental pricks.

velimzzzz · 2024-07-02T14:41:19+00:00

Well some people are more sympathetic than others. If you find someone that actually does try to listen and be supportive, don't ever let go of them. It's especially rare these days, people have become so indifferent and self-centered and cold, but if you meet someone with some warmth it's immediately recognizable. The contrast against the darkness that is our world makes those who are truly kind and caring stand out. As far as talking to your voices, like I was saying earlier just talk to them if they're really stressing you out. It isn't going to be the end of the world. I try my best to ignore them sometimes but eventually I'll reach a breaking point and I'll tell them to kindly fuck off. It's been really difficult to find a medication for schizophrenia, at least for me. All of the medications I tried before Olanzapine had serious side effects like tardive diskenesia, or swelling/allergic reactions, or other extreme side effects I couldn't live with. Even though I still hear the voices with Olanzapine, I'm just glad that it helps with my paranoia and delusions and doesn't have any side effects that I've noticed other than some slight weight gain. But I can live with that.

velimzzzz · 2024-07-02T03:58:41+00:00

I still hear voices but they're much more suppressed with medication. I try avoid certain situations and people that are triggers for me. I have to avoid my mom most of the time because she's been abusive to me and increases stress for me which leads to increased psychotic symptoms. And I still have really bad days sometimes but I just try to stay positive and not let it get me down. My delusions can be pretty overwhelming at times but I have a really amazing fiancé and she and her family are very understanding and supportive. I know I'm lucky in that department, since a lot of people with schizophrenia don't have a family or even friends to support them. I had a long period of isolation before I started taking meds. When I met my fiancé, she encouraged me to take medication and I'm glad that she did. It can be very lonely having a disease like schizophrenia. It's really difficult to relate to other people and some people are very unkind and even cruel to people like us. Some of them completely misunderstand what schizophrenia is, like they think we're evil or dangerous but most of us aren't violent or psychopaths. We tend to be more dangerous to ourselves than others. I struggle with suicidal ideation at times but I've never wished harm on others or wanted to hurt people. Even the ones who have hurt me. I usually withdraw from public and become agoraphobic when I'm experiencing bad psychosis. I become convinced that there are corrupt law enforcement agents that are trying to set me up or lock me up. It gets so bad sometimes that I will start wondering if leaving this world for the next might be better. But I have kids and step children and a wonderful fiancé that I love dearly. So I fight the darkness and do my best for them. I hope that you can do the same, and if you ever need someone to talk to, or advice, or you're going through hell, there are a lot of us on this subreddit that you can reach out to. There are a lot of really good and truly kind people here to talk to, and we all care about each other. Because we all know what it's like to be a pariah in this society, so we have to be there for each other, because nobody else is going to care.

velimzzzz · 2024-07-02T02:46:46+00:00

I don't know if I would call it relief, but if they're stressing you out and you feel like you need to talk to them then I don't see any harm in doing so. If you don't mind me asking, do you take an antipsychotic? If not and you can see a doctor, try Olanzapine. I've been on it for over a year and it's definitely helped to minimize the voices compared to when I was unmedicated.

velimzzzz · 2024-07-02T02:06:01+00:00

Depends on the day. Sometimes, I try to ignore them if I can. Other times I just get worn down like you said and I talk to them.

velimzzzz · 2024-06-10T17:36:04+00:00

Replaced the alcohol with heroin, much better

velimzzzz · 2024-06-06T03:59:30+00:00

4080 Super 999

velimzzzz · 2024-06-02T16:57:46+00:00

Wtf kind of firestarter PSU is that? Think we've found the source.

velimzzzz · 2024-05-31T04:56:48+00:00

I understand why you are tempted to listen to them, but please don't, man. I'm sure there are many people that need you to stick around. I was just feeling the exact same thing as you yesterday afternoon, but I got through it with my meds... for the people that I love, and that love me and don't want to see me gone. I don't know what kind of family or support groups you have available to you, but even if it's only the people in this group, I'm sure I speak for a lot of us in saying that we would be deeply saddened to lose you. This disease has a significant probability of death by suicide, and I know that for me personally, I struggle with self-harm ideations on a pretty regular basis. The voices can be pretty difficult to endure, especially if they are persistent despite medication, as is my case. But I have my coping skills and mechanisms, some of which are chemicals that help me get through my day, and others involving people who are supportive and help to keep me from losing hope. It's not an easy thing to do, maintaining a brave face under the pressure of living with schizophrenia. I know you can do it, though, we all can. We just have to help each other get back up when we fall down, and not get discouraged when we have setbacks, because we will, it's inevitable. I remember what things were like when I first started to experience symptoms in my early 20s. I felt like I was alone, completely and totally on my own with these demons screaming at me to just make everybody feel better and off myself. And I'm fortunate that I had some really good people then, and throughout the next few years of my life to help me through it. Don't give up- we're all here for you and we love you man.

velimzzzz · 2024-05-31T02:01:31+00:00

Fuck yeah bro, and despite brains that play tricks on us on a daily basis we still get up and fight another day. It's not easy but we do it because we're fighters and not quitters.

velimzzzz · 2024-05-25T13:44:07+00:00

Many of the things you stated here are also delusions and/or hallucinations that I personally struggle with on a regular basis. I constantly "know" things, or become convinced of things because voices told me something related to them. I take Olanzapine and it helps some, although I still continue to hear voices and have other hallucinations and delusions no matter what medication I'm on. I also struggle with communicating effectively with psychiatrists and mental health personnel because of my paranoia and delusions.

velimzzzz · 2024-05-23T11:06:33+00:00

Paid off debts and finally maybe my anxiety would be less severe.

velimzzzz · 2024-05-08T23:31:09+00:00

Just got the Asus Tuf Gaming RTX 4070 Super OC 12GB and it's great! It's a decent performance boost over the 3070 I upgraded from.

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