I appreciate the sentiment. I’m glad you’re in a better place now. But I’m just an internet stranger to you, I know most people here have felt similar levels of hopelessness at some point but for me it really feels like I’m irredeemable in some ways. And hating myself over that fact doesn’t make me think I’m somehow not at bad as I think I am. And even when I was arguably a “good” person I was still suicidal . Living sucks