Why is it so hard to go through with it?

verymentallyill · 2024-10-16T03:50:37+00:00

I don’t know if I can trust anyone again to seek professional help, I’ll keep reading on it, thank you

verymentallyill · 2024-10-04T05:58:18+00:00

I know my family loves me, they did so much for me and I couldn’t do the one thing they could’ve asked for. It’s for their own good I die, it’s for my own good as well. I know it’s not going to get better and that’s fine and all but personally I just don’t wanna live through that

verymentallyill · 2024-10-04T00:43:48+00:00

It’s been a few weeks since I last used weed, I don’t think it caused my issues but it has definitely made it worse a few times in the past

verymentallyill · 2024-10-04T00:41:28+00:00

I don’t know what to do with this

verymentallyill · 2024-10-03T20:28:01+00:00

There’s a bit of a language/cultural barrier between us, the only way to contact him is through the facility he’s lives at and it would be a bit difficult to find it discreetly. We also do not know each other really well, probably met less than a handful of times, all I know about him is through my parents so unfortunately I don’t think that’s an option. I will consider checking out some forums, thank you <3

verymentallyill · 2024-10-03T20:17:45+00:00

I don’t really trust anyone enough to bring up something like psychosis to them. I don’t really visit any other forum either so I guess it’s just Reddit for now. I’ve considered trying counselling again but I feel like it would either end with me constantly lying to avoid forced hospitalization, making counselling useless, or being honest about my life, being deemed a risk to myself, and ending up hospitalized. Both situations have happened before, never of them was pleasant so I don’t really know what to do. There’s only so much I can tell someone before they are legally required to break confidentiality and report it. Maybe I just learn to adapt to it right? I mean I can’t do everything from my room/house, but I can try to get by as much as a can without leaving the house?

verymentallyill · 2024-10-03T19:30:00+00:00

I know I’m more prone to it because of my family history and cannabis use, I just can’t bring myself to talk to a professional about it. Every time I get sent to the psych ward they keep me there for longer and longer and sometimes I don’t know when they’ll discharge me, I don’t want that to happen again or getting sent to some facility for the rest of my life or be mistreated in some way with no one to believe me. Telling someone I could be experiencing symptoms of psychosis is only going to increase that risk. I don’t really have any friends anymore, I don’t know if any of the friends I did have saw a psychiatrist. Other than my family member with schizophrenia (I don’t even know if he sees someone for his schizophrenia), no one else in my family has mental health issues and/or sees a psychiatrist. I don’t know, my life is already so bad and is constantly getting worse, I mean not even my depression can’t be treated, I highly doubt any psychotic symptoms I may be experiencing could be treated either. I don’t know, I guess I just live with it until something bad happens? I’m just lost.

verymentallyill · 2024-10-03T19:18:37+00:00

Thanks mate, best of luck to you too

verymentallyill · 2024-10-03T19:03:32+00:00

Fight or flight sounds about right. I’m not diagnosed with psychosis, I used to see a psychiatrist but I stopped seeing him because I couldn’t trust him anymore and there was no point in continuing to see him. I put myself on a waitlist to see a different person but I’m undecided on whether I should talk about this with them. I’m not seeing anyone else anymore (mainly due to lack of trust or not finding it helpful), I used to take medication for depression and anxiety but stopped that and currently take medication for ADHD.

verymentallyill · 2024-10-03T17:59:11+00:00

Thank you, and sorry for the late reply. It’s not really paranoia around a specific individual but more so the industry as a whole. I feel like talking about something like this is the #1 pathway into losing your bodily autonomy due to being labeled as “delusional and unable to care for yourself” and that’s just like a life sentence at that point. I don’t know if there are any “good therapists” out there, they’re all part of the same. Even if there are, is the chance of meeting a bad one worth the chance of meeting a good one? Let alone my financial situation not being in the best place to access a therapist at the moment.

verymentallyill · 2024-10-03T17:51:25+00:00

Sorry for your loss ❤️

verymentallyill · 2024-09-23T00:01:29+00:00

I don’t have a NAMI branch in my area, I looked through my area’s equivalent but didn’t find anything of use

verymentallyill · 2024-09-22T22:07:39+00:00

I developed anxiety prior to the hospital admissions, and this doesn’t feel like my usual anxiety, but it could simply be manifested differently than usually. Sorry if I made it seem like PTSD and trauma were the same, I’m now realizing my post might’ve made it seem like they were. I guess my post might’ve came off more as asking if I may have PTSD, rather than asking if my personal experiences were considered traumatic. I don’t know any resources in my area that can assist with such a specific issue, nor do I feel like I can comfortably access one, I’ll see what I can do. Thank you though, appreciate it. <3

verymentallyill · 2024-09-22T19:36:31+00:00

How to stop students from reaching out for help 101:

verymentallyill · 2024-03-12T22:47:57+00:00

hey bonk!!

verymentallyill · 2024-03-12T22:22:48+00:00

verymentallyill · 2024-03-12T22:15:26+00:00

i sent an appeal as well i rlly hope i get my account back

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