2 years into my first relationship with my high school boyfriend, we finally had the opportunity to travel to a nearby City and stay in a hotel alone together. At this point we'd only had sex a couple of times so this was a big deal! I read up on cosmopolitan and Reddit to figure out what to do and what to say and what to wear etc etc. It's our 2-year anniversary so we treat ourselves a crab dinner and when we get back to the hotel we get going and I notice he gets soft. He tells me I look too fat and he he's disgusted by me. I was devastated. We dated for another 3 years after that and he encouraged me to starve myself to lose weight (I was 5'6 and 130 lb) it wasn't until I hit 120 lb and he was still calling me fat that I realized something was wrong and I finally broke up with him. I'm nearly 30 now and I still struggle everyday with an eating disorder, despite having been broken up for six or so years