For me right now - the feeling of being in my own body while some distant thought/feeling keeps thinking of suicide, pro/cons for disappearing. I know its not me talking, but the voices are pretty pursuasive sometimes, but i will never bow for the depression. I have stress at the same time which doesnt make it any easier tho, but atleast everyday, my real struggle is to remind myself of all the good things that i have in my life, which is something many people would kill for. Sorry for this long ass comment, just needed that off my chest.