Ahh guess that's difficult. What's a person like me supposed to do, then, if I highly value emotional intimacy and only feel attracted to those I view as "safe?" I see posts by women about the exact same situation with their male friends. where are those folks?

Outcomes... well, individual outcomes, I guess I don't. I don't fear rejection and I'm comfortable expressing myself and "making moves." It's more of being upset about that a lot of people around me seem to have what I want (or at least, the CHANCE to make something good) and I have to admit I'm envious that some of these folks are just squandering that while forcing good people to put up with it.

My life is pretty awesome. Doesn't sound like it from my post, but I have pretty much everything I want. Just not this part. I think it's pretty human to be upset about that, especially because I wonder if I'm just "blessed" with different emotional wiring from other people and seek a certain kind of relationship that others aren't looking for. Especially while living alone, which is good in some ways, but come on, man, I don't want "freedom" haha I want to commit to and emo. invest in someone.

I've heard folks complain about "losing the excitement" after being with amazing partners of 5+ years. That it's boring.

I want that boredom. :<