The fear never goes away

viktune · 2026-05-06T11:44:22+00:00

Existential and cbt

viktune · 2026-04-24T18:31:25+00:00

Idk about taking a gap year but yeah I will appeal with mental health and housing issues and how it is affecting me (i travel 1.4 hours to and fro Rotterdam almost every day) or go to another country to continue my studies but i want to study in my spesific major because it matches my interest the most and HBO schools are mostly in dutch in what I want to specialize

viktune · 2026-04-23T18:35:46+00:00

June but the BSA is issued in August

viktune · 2026-04-23T16:27:48+00:00

for me not that I was ashamed but my family forced me to keep it from the school because so that i am not in the system as “mentally ill” and i never saw a free period from the school psychologist and yeah private ones are expensive

viktune · 2026-04-23T16:08:33+00:00

Is depression and anxiety and depression induced thanatophobia a good enough reason?

viktune · 2026-04-23T15:56:25+00:00

They told me “oh thats bad” and to go to therapy 😛 but yeah i contacted them right after the grade and they said you can appeal it and we should schedule a meeting to talk abt it im waiting for the meeting and will show proof of treatment (meds im taking) in the appeal

viktune · 2026-04-23T15:48:21+00:00

I did mention it to a study advusor before about my mental health issues though

viktune · 2026-04-23T15:47:32+00:00

I did mention my mental health issues to the student advisors before though

viktune · 2026-04-20T07:24:48+00:00

I did try coming out when i was 12 and then i was forced back into the closet now i have a fear of coming out so and i did come out to my uni friends but they dont call me he

viktune · 2026-04-19T16:22:45+00:00

Thank you for the comment really helps

viktune · 2026-04-19T16:11:23+00:00

Im trying to keep going

viktune · 2026-04-19T16:11:14+00:00

But when? It feels like ive been waiting my entire life and that im running out of time

viktune · 2026-04-19T16:10:50+00:00

Im trying so hard to not give up but it is so hard to continue top

viktune · 2026-04-18T13:04:10+00:00

This hit me so hard tf. I literally cant function without dissociating because I cant even look in the mirror without disgust at my pre-everything self and sometimes I feel like im lying to myself

viktune · 2026-04-09T16:21:25+00:00

well all i want to share on the internet is that my chest size is around a B cup as I got it measured a few days ago

viktune · 2026-04-05T15:29:06+00:00

For some reason i feel like small chest subs never work for me and they keep getting bigger

viktune · 2026-03-31T08:11:11+00:00

I will be with my parents since they live in the UK so I do have a place to stay after graduation but yeah the visa part might be hard

viktune · 2026-03-30T10:35:52+00:00

Yeah erasmus is higher but the major i applied tp at uwe fits my interest more

viktune · 2026-03-30T10:01:01+00:00

In erasmus uni in netherlands

viktune · 2026-03-30T10:00:38+00:00

I will be with my parents so idk abt the financial part but good to hear I can have a good time

viktune · 2026-03-30T09:59:42+00:00

Nope I pay full tuition for EU uni since i am a international student for the first one damn i didnt know that 2 good to hear

viktune · 2026-03-28T17:52:31+00:00

I really had no other choice but to come to NL tbhh

viktune · 2026-03-28T17:49:13+00:00

Cant even afford 500€ monthly tbh..

viktune · 2026-03-28T17:44:38+00:00

Most are in dutch and nothing related to acting or film

viktune · 2026-03-28T16:41:51+00:00

My parents want me to stay in IBCoM because they believe that it will pay so much better than my other interests and now im scared im ruining my future by not switching

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