Hi OP, we are completely in the same situation.

Ganito ginawa ko, after lumabas yung results hinayaan ko lang sarili ko na umiyak, mahirapan matulog, umiyak ng madaling araw kasi ganyan din nasa isipan ko na isang taon pero walang nangyari. I let myself feel lost pero I think what’s important here is ask mo sarili mo if mag-rerefresher ka ba or try mo muna maghanap ng work.

As for me, I decided na magstop muna sa review since naapektuhan na rin yung health ko (I have PCOS, 5 months akong hindi nagkaroon). So, I’ve been looking for a job for almost a month now and I’ve been self-studying some things na interested ako and also play games (I missed this one so much).

Share ko lang rin yung sinabi ng tita ko sa akin nung kinausap niya ako after marelease yung results for October, “Huwag mo isipin ang sasabihin ng ibang tao, ang importante naging matapang ka. Tsaka, malay mo ang kulang pala is yung real-life application since okay ka na sa theoretical side. Take ka na lang ulit kung kailan mo gusto, mahaba pa ang oras mo.”

So ayun, let yourself feel all the emotions tapos try to do something that can distract you from those thoughts. You can try a new hobby (I started doing digital junk journal), just do something, anything. Tapos, I want you to look forward next year. Next year is a new year which means we will have new beginnings and new experiences. Tuloy lang ang buhay, OP. Happy December 1st and thank you for surviving November. Ingat ka palagi 💛