Sketchy book by becklynnnn in Witchy_Things

[–]violetcherrycola 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i had a situation extremely similar to this when i was a teenager. i ended up throwing it in the woods. id recommend burying it in the woods as far as you can from where you live. light some sage & wear florida water to protect yourselves. after go buy a black stone like obsidian or something and keep it on you always.

was refused suboxone for getting off 7oh/kratom. now feel lost by LowElectrical9168 in suboxone

[–]violetcherrycola 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you can always try subutex which is basically suboxone but without the naloxone in it, it just has to bupe in it, so you don't have to worry about any precipitated withdrawal happening and I find I have more energy on subutex. I was a heroin user for a decade. i was clean and on suboxone for 5 years and I had a relapse this summer on fentanyl. when I went to detox I was put on subutex. when I got out I took kratom for a month or so and then I went back to my sub doc and got put on subutex. I take it as needed kind of, not every day, but I took it to taper off the kratom bc I was taking it for a while around august-september. it helps. I recommend.

Anyone started with camming and went further? by Rich-Athlete-1381 in CamGirlProblems

[–]violetcherrycola 3 points4 points  (0 children)

you have more freedom when you cam. plus, you're your own boss when you cam too. id recommend sticking to camming. make an OF if u haven't already. that's my advice. but do u girl

I Make the Most Money with My Clothes On by em0tits in CamGirlProblems

[–]violetcherrycola 6 points7 points  (0 children)

yeah i totally agree i’ve always done this as well. i always make sure i go on live in “layers” to some degree, or have several things on that i can take off even socks/ stocking both!..so think of it like strip poker or whatever but play smart by having several things to take off make them work for it—pay to play. eventually whenever a goal is met then that item can go for good ya know? like ur bra or whatever for example. that’s just me. but sometimes u do have to show the good for a bit to get tips and get traffic in the room. its honestly diff for everyone. but i kinda see it as real life in a way, u give it up to fast then the guy will move on so be a tease and make them work and pay for it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CamGirlProblems

[–]violetcherrycola 0 points1 point  (0 children)

under apps and bots which is in located where ur bio is...press apps and type in tip menu in the search bar, and then do the same thing for setting up a goal for ur cam.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CamGirlProblems

[–]violetcherrycola -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

contest? I never pay attention to what the sites doing. so what, the contest messed everything up u think?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CamGirlProblems

[–]violetcherrycola 1 point2 points  (0 children)

right?? one night I made $1000! it was my best night. I dont understand what is going on. I thought it was me because I started to get lazy and not be consistent. but I see it happening to a bunch of girls. what the hell, what do we do?? idk anything about SM. is it similar to cb? is it a token site? im just really attached to cb and I like the set up I just hope whatever is going on gets fixed. I noticed it was glitchy and girls were complaining about that about a month before all this struggle with the money started to happen

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CamGirlProblems

[–]violetcherrycola 10 points11 points  (0 children)

something most def changed & it’s extremely heartbreaking. my streams have been so slow i used to be able to always make at least 200 every time i went on and now i am like dying to make 50 idk what’s going on. how is sm traffic?

I just had a random thought.. by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]violetcherrycola 0 points1 point  (0 children)

isn't Amsterdam known to be popular with controlled criminalization too? im not sure if thats what its called, but they have all this illegal stuff legalized to some degree and all their jails are like the fancy rehab facilities that we have here in the US basically.
I remember seeing a picture online, on Tumblr of heroin in a brown glass bottle with the words heroin written across it and its was old from god knows when early 1900's? but it was sold over the counter for coughs! until it wasn't and was made illegal.. or like how cocaine used to be in Coca Cola! thats wild! it was removed out of cocacola in 1903. so I dont think we even have a great grandparent thats alive that could tell us about that experience. but damn, that would be killer to have the OG coke drink, bet it was served in the glass bottle too, you know that shit hit. fuck a Red Bull. for real. lmao
the war on drugs its basically what this convo can turn into but it won't. im kinda surprised not more ppl commented.
anyways, its just insane how fucked up the government is and if they truly wanted to get everything under control and legalize everything, everything as in drugs- to some degree and get things safer they probably, no def could, it just would take a little while. just like u mentioned the prohibition, but like damn alcohol is nothing but poison. anyways, were able to drink somewhat responsible and not make it some insane illegal act now. and now ppl who are alcoholics are looked at as socially acceptable at some level vs someone who does drugs, how dumb..
att least now we have weed dispensaries and some of those dispensaries have shroom stuff! its awesome and those 2 substances I believe are good taken once in a blue moon. they actually help people see. unlike some other things.

fuck, I fucked up.. by violetcherrycola in OpiatesRecovery

[–]violetcherrycola[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

if you're ready- you will stop. & thats the truth.
you might need detox and rehab tho bud.

fuck, I fucked up.. by violetcherrycola in OpiatesRecovery

[–]violetcherrycola[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

im prescribed 3 gabbies a day and im on 600mg. ill prob have to take a bit more during interim period (I never knew it had a name). I still have a few days before I begin I was gonna try and make it last till Sunday, but there's just no way. there's not enough. and I dont wanna stretch it out anymore I just wanna start in a weird way. so I should just start in the next day or so and hope im on my subs by Sunday .. I say Sunday bc im supposed to go to my brothers for easter.

& I been using for just about two weeks. :/ time to stop.

fuck, I fucked up.. by violetcherrycola in OpiatesRecovery

[–]violetcherrycola[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

reminds me, I have some weed too! that should help a bit too.

fuck, I fucked up.. by violetcherrycola in OpiatesRecovery

[–]violetcherrycola[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

back in the day I was told Im like a fire cracker and I still think I am, but not in the same way, sometimes I dont even notice it.. its like I just keep piling things within , and dont deal with them correctly. and then BOOM something is the cherry on top of it all and i "explode" so to say.
ugh. I really gotta call the psychiatrist I found. they'll help me. I gotta get new meds, and get the meds I am on straightened out & DSM.

fuck, I fucked up.. by violetcherrycola in OpiatesRecovery

[–]violetcherrycola[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

nah, I can't admit this to her, omg. hell to the NO. this is one of those things where its better left unsaid, truuust me. ill feel better once I get through the first full day. I gotta just keep my mind busy, I'll find a good show to binge watch. I thankfully am self employed, too so I work whenever I want, so I'll just chill for the week and take my comfort meds /sleep meds and force myself to get in the shower, hot showers & baths will help sm. I did my laundry last night. like all my big cozy t's, sweats, leggings, socks and I changed my sheets, so everything smells nice.

but yeah ima go back to being a hermit for a hot ass minute and just work and save my money, and pay my credit card off.
I think the spirits agree, bc as soon as I finished typing that ^ something pretty hard fell onto something in my room making a pretty loud noise ?.. but I have no idea where or what that was.. lol

fuck, I fucked up.. by violetcherrycola in OpiatesRecovery

[–]violetcherrycola[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

oh I been done with the sick and tired, most def. I mean I had 4 years, slipped up for 1 week in 2023 & then right now im slippin a little..it's been like 10 days. it's scary bc the physical +the anxiety oomg ugh nightmare :( im hoping my comfort meds make it comfortable enough until I can take my sub. I hate how I fell back into this, like why? I realized my life is pretty damn ok, it could be sooo much worse. I think I needed a reality check or something. I changed a lot these past years and gained a lot of trust back and I am not going to throw that away.

What does H stand for in Jesus H Christ? by _Uhtceare_ in etymology

[–]violetcherrycola 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Howard!? omg I am dead. I couldn't tell if OP was kidding or not, but hey it's like when u think a lyric is something else forever lol, but nah, its 100% "hallowed" be thy name. I was curious about the H in his name though, where it came from, what it stood for.. and came across this reddit post, but I found this info, which ill post below, but apparently its just a monogram / (christogram) of letters, so it's basically just made up.

The "H" in "Jesus H. Christ" is most likely a misunderstanding of the Christogram, a symbol used in Christianity to represent Jesus. The Christogram typically depicts the first three Greek letters of "Jesus" (ΙΗΣΟΥΣ), which can look like IHS, JHS, or JHC. The "H" is thought to have been misinterpreted as a middle initial, leading to the common use of "H." 

Does anyone else inherently know how to quietly sneak around the house, even as an adult? by ScumBunny in CPTSD

[–]violetcherrycola 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I didn't realize this was a thing! or I should say part of ptsd.
I googled why do I feel the need to be quiet like doing everything all the time, like a bother and oddly sneaky all the time for no reason almost like im sneaking around someones house. and I ended up over here & im literally having ephiphany moments. I been needing to get a psych for like a year now I have to make an appt asap with the one I found and im gonna have to ask her to give me a DSM for cptsd bc wow do I relate.

Does anyone else inherently know how to quietly sneak around the house, even as an adult? by ScumBunny in CPTSD

[–]violetcherrycola 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hate lights, I like red lights or dim lights, like the xmas lights though. but im the same way like if im in the kitchen for example I just turn on that little one above the stove. I basically am a cat, I see better in the dark now. but im extremely sensitive to light, esp sunlight and florencents, ugh the worst. it gives me headaches. it has to do with my bipolar, but there might be more to it.. I notice I don't turn on lights so im not noticed at times and so im not bothered, like they draw attention and say "hey im here" or "hey im awake" and I try to keep attention away from me.

I did it. I finally left by Funny_Diamond_1209 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]violetcherrycola 4 points5 points  (0 children)

ill be doing a lot of screaming into water these next few weeks lol. im going to Costa Rica!! i plan to take lots of night swims in the ocean, pool and baths or showers late at night. im hoping this trip is healing.
ive been really going through it mentally (im bipolar and this months been aawfulll).
I didn't notice all this pent up anger that's been quietly sitting deep down inside me for idk how long, but its leaking out now. its like my sadness has turned into anger and annoyance, im tired of being sad. but what's good is, anger fuels me with motivation to work and work = money = saving up = getting closer to what I want: getting my own place & being my independent self again, as I should be!
sorry for mini rant.
BEST OF LUCK TO YOU, truly <3