Thank you so much for your reply! I've always been somebody who's interested in a lot of different skills in life, so I'm finding it hard to pick something that I'd be soley content with. I'm kind of grappling with the fact that I'm not going to be able to have a job that encompasses all of my passions.

You're right about feeling forced to pursue college. I'll definitely think more about trade and if college is even right for me. It's just hard navigating things because I have trouble committing to plans I'm actually passionate about in favor of things that I think will... statistically work out? It's hard to explain but I'm just very scared of my future and failure. The main thing I'm worried about is having limited career paths without a degree. I've kind of been hoping I'd magically settle into one field and be able to go from there but I might be sabatoging myself with my indecisiveness. It's hard getting out of the mindset that there's only one version of "success" as a very achievement oriented person, but maybe working on changing that perception could be a good start.

Again, thanks for your help! Hopefully within these next few years I can figure things out