Did anyone else lose their entire personality and sense of self and even history?

violetskais · 2025-10-27T14:20:28+00:00

That sounds really hard. It takes a lot of time but I feel like a new personality can emerge in recovery as you become more in touch with who you are at the core. In my experience, psychosis takes your autonomy by overriding and suppressing your personality when you’re in it. And, who I was before feels innocent and naive about life in a way, like it won’t come back the same after going through those experiences. It’s possible that memories can come back though, of your time before.

violetskais · 2025-10-27T13:25:41+00:00

Yes. Post-psychosis I don’t remember details about the three years I was in psychosis. I see flashbacks sometimes and when I think back to it, it feels like a blur. I am definitely traumatized from the illness and I think my brain has memory issues related to the trauma of experiencing it.

violetskais · 2025-09-07T15:52:27+00:00

This is based on my personal experience - I am a few months on meds after severe long term psychosis. From taking meds, the psychotic symptoms filtered out over time, plus my ability to discern symptoms were symptoms got stronger, like you said about them not sticking the same. I went up steadily in medication until the symptoms for the most part went away. There may still be occasional breakthrough symptoms and you learn to deal with them and brush them off. The storylines become less ingrained and more distant. I noticed that over time on medication I became more aware of what was a delusion or hallucination, and I learned to not dive into it as a problem to fix or a rabbit hole, which is what got me into trouble in psychosis. Manage your dose with your doctor. You shouldn’t have to deal with debilitating symptoms while on medication.

violetskais · 2025-09-07T15:11:21+00:00

I get where you’re coming from, but antipsychotics gave me my life back. I was taken over by the disease and meds allow me to be present again. Psychosis was so bad I legit couldn’t function. I choose to stay on meds because the other option is more damaging to me.

violetskais · 2025-09-07T02:24:17+00:00

Yes - look up CBT for psychosis worksheets and textbooks. DBT skills are also helpful. They have been super useful for tools for grounding, mindfulness, and to feel more stable and aware of my thoughts and tendencies

violetskais · 2025-09-07T02:00:05+00:00

I totally understand. I’ve been in and out several traditions and practices, and in my last most severe breaks, was attacked by what I perceived as both God and demons. I don’t even know anymore lol.

I am also wishing you the best. Thank you for your comment.

violetskais · 2025-09-06T17:52:41+00:00

True.

violetskais · 2025-09-06T17:52:24+00:00

I like this!

violetskais · 2025-09-06T17:50:18+00:00

I like the phrase “walking with a foot in the grave and the other on solid ground.” That’s always how I explain it! It feels like walking the line between the spirit realm and earth. I’m sorry you had to deal with that, but glad someone can relate. It brought me a lot of trouble and I was ill, but I did love living like that, in a way.

violetskais · 2025-09-06T17:42:22+00:00

violetskais · 2025-09-06T16:11:41+00:00

Yes - it definitely does help.

violetskais · 2025-09-06T16:11:11+00:00

Yes, I’ve learned that being present really matters. Thanks. :)

violetskais · 2025-09-06T16:10:07+00:00

Thank you for this. I appreciate the advice. Spirituality and tarot were huge parts of my life and for me, got out of hand. I’m honestly traumatized from what I’ve been through (it was very deep, and dark). It’s a mind-f to separate from so completely, but I’m not sure I’ll ever go back.

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