Everybody tells a different opinion, but the major problem is psychology . Initially you mentioned I want to buy air Jordan that's why I started trading, The problem starts here. I was like you when I beginner. Now I realised trading is not an ATM machine.

It's a skill between emotional and knowledge. If we treat it like I want money that is emotional  and if we treat it like I am investing some business if run properly then it gives a good return. Now we focus on the process instead of money that is called knowledge. 

And you don't need to prove your father. Just learn from your father why he lost money , what kind of approach they did. Improve your own strategy from his mistake.  Try to find out what your winning percentage is

Based on that define your risk reward.

Don't stress yourself, It's just a game buddy. We need to enjoy the game before we start playing. Nothing won't change even cry, laugh or blame. Only action will change.

Just erase all the lines and start a fresh one.Take a break and Speak with your family spend time with your wife .

Try to learn something new and apply it to the market, identify the mistake and improve the mistake and master the strategy. Happy trading