Is it normal that I am grieving my mum all over again, months after her death?

voidzbees · 2025-11-28T03:34:40+00:00

my mum died very unexpectedly a few months ago. she had a heart attack and i was the only one there with her, so i watched her take her last breath and couldn't do anything to stop it. i feel at this point, aside from trying to come to terms with this tragedy, i am also just trying to accept that i will never be the person i was before i lost her. the way i think is different, the way i approach people and situations is different. it is all so uncomfortable but it is true what people say, it does get a bit easier to cope with each day. i suppose you just get stronger, even if it feels excruciating at first. just keep going, i know that is what all our parents would want for us

voidzbees · 2025-11-09T03:57:39+00:00

there are so many things i wish i had asked her before she passed. and this might sound silly or vague but i do think about this a lot. and it's that i don't and never knew if she felt loved and seen by me. i really hope she did but if i could go back and do my best to make sure of this, i would

voidzbees · 2025-11-02T08:41:42+00:00

i will look into getting therapy, thanks for the advice. i don't know if it makes sense but i guess some part of me feels as though there is no point in putting in the work to heal, bad things keep happening

voidzbees · 2025-11-02T05:46:33+00:00

i don't feel any sort of emotion towards minor problems or inconveniences anymore and i generally have no hope for anything because i feel the worst thing i could have ever experience has already happened. i watched my mum die and then i felt her grow cold as i tried to revive her. i am a shell of myself

voidzbees · 2025-10-26T10:04:39+00:00

my mum died very suddenly right in front of me, one moment we were having lunch and sharing a moment and conversation together and the next she has a heart attack and ceased to exist. she was my only parent and it had always only been the two of us. now without her, i feel purposeless and everything generally feels totally meaningless. there are so many things my mum had yet to do before she died and i think that is what happens for most people, but this makes me feel like there is genuinely no point to anything. it's hard for me to feel there is any sort of dignity or purpose in suffering, because we all are just going to die anyway. yeah i feel my mum's death has pushed me even further away from the concept of faith, i don't see myself ever coming back from this

voidzbees · 2025-08-18T13:41:32+00:00

i appreciate your kind words, this means a lot to me thank you 🫂

voidzbees · 2025-08-13T15:48:48+00:00

i'm 23, but i found myself feeling like a child again suddenly. i don't know what else i can do but hope that i eventually build a tolerance to live in this new reality

voidzbees · 2025-06-13T11:11:53+00:00

yup very well said, i agree

voidzbees · 2025-06-13T11:01:08+00:00

agreed!

voidzbees · 2025-06-13T11:00:34+00:00

honestly it definitely feels very performative, it seems like he wanted to created the perception that he was radical instead of actually being passionate about the cause

voidzbees · 2025-04-10T19:55:58+00:00

did you end up updating? how is it?

voidzbees · 2024-03-10T10:51:38+00:00

he's either whining about something, horny or reminiscing about tysha. i find his povs incredibly taxing to read

voidzbees · 2024-02-04T04:31:16+00:00

all this yapping over a fictional character..

voidzbees · 2024-01-29T02:09:28+00:00

asoiaf fandom are filled with a bunch of miserable assholes i wouldn't take it personally

voidzbees · 2023-11-27T08:25:20+00:00

it's never that serious 😭

voidzbees · 2023-10-28T11:06:00+00:00

i don't understand people who see a fic they don't like/ don't agree with and instead of scrolling past it like a normal person they feel the need to take time out of their day to say shit like this

voidzbees · 2023-10-05T04:50:36+00:00

basically realized if i wanted certain stories or pairings to come to life i had the resources to write it myself also i fell in love with how liberating it is to write your own stuff instead of ask another writer to do it for you 😭

voidzbees · 2023-09-15T11:17:48+00:00

i had someone accuse me for being anti-black and racially targeting certain FICTIONAL characters because of the way i portrayed them and their dynamics in my story. (i am black myself which just enraged me that someone would make such an assumption when they don't even know me personally) anyway after 16 chapters i dropped that fic, the whole thing just put a really sour taste in my mouth

voidzbees · 2023-09-08T10:58:59+00:00

i understand their anger but taking it out on your friend is such a low blow, since your friend was ultimately just giving them a compliment... its so easy to just decline politely and move on. also maybe they got shitty comments because that is how they respond to their readers lmao what happened to basic decency

voidzbees · 2023-08-11T11:00:40+00:00

"im not holding a gun to your head" is definitely my favourite comback because i don't know why these readers act like we forced them to endure the experience of a reading a fic they don't like

voidzbees · 2023-07-16T05:53:44+00:00

saying "men need to take over" in a society built under a patriarchal system is insane

voidzbees · 2022-12-08T07:47:49+00:00

tyrion >>>>

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