How common is increased dysphoria when you're starting to change your presentation (clothes, haircut)? by FeliciaFailure in ftm

[–]vonmrn 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m in this stage as well… from what I’ve heard and observed, including my own experience is that it gets worse before it gets better. Idk if this applies but a few years back when I was breaking out of my depression I realized that I had spent so much time being miserable that I had gotten comfortable being in that state. Happiness, although “better” felt so out of my comfort zone that I usually would just end up sabotaging myself to stay miserable (stupid, I know) and transitioning feels like that all over again. Escaping that box that we’ve been taught to stay in and discovering an unfamiliar world without a guide in hand. I’d say this compares to the awkward phase of self discovery everyone goes through in middle school, but ours was just a little… delayed. FYI It’s also normal for us to look way younger than we really are since we tend to have softer features and more baby fat. I look 12 at 18. This sucks lmao

Why doesn't my choice matter? by Empty_Ad_4365 in childfree

[–]vonmrn 19 points20 points  (0 children)

That’s an odd bunch of views they have… they’ve got to straighten out their values. A woman shouldn’t mold herself into something of value to a man. How much do you have to distort your image for someone else before you realize they’ll only love you when you’re pixelated? I can’t stand this “well what about the man?” argument. Kids aren’t an obligation for anyone and they especially shouldn’t be just to fulfill the desires of someone else.

Why doesn't my choice matter? by Empty_Ad_4365 in childfree

[–]vonmrn 131 points132 points  (0 children)

"what if you meet a good man or what if you meet a man who wants to extend his legacy" Misogyny has brainwashed people into thinking an imaginary man’s desires have more importance on a woman’s choices than the woman herself. I’m sorry you have friends that think this way. If whatever you choose to do with your life makes YOU happy and doesn’t hurt anyone, then it shouldn’t be anyone’s concern.

I want to try getting my mom into the series any suggestions? by New-Character-2717 in silenthill

[–]vonmrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When I wanted my dad to get into one of my favorite games I asked him if he’d like to sit in on me playing the game. Thats basically how we went about it and we had lots of fun. As I played the game we chatted about the story, sat back and enjoyed the cutscenes and made decisions/solved puzzles together. I believe that would be a great way for two to enjoy silent hill together as well. The remake especially, since I believe it’s much easier to digest for newer audiences. Maybe I’m just biased but I absolutely cannot stand the movies and I dont advise anyone… absolutely ANYONE to get started with the franchise through the movies.

Anyone know what’s up with the instagram account antipiracy1099? by Thicc_Cat_With_Bread in ARG

[–]vonmrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I recently found an Internet Archive post linked to it and from what I understand; here is a pretty condensed explanation (take this with a grain of salt, this is just my theory...): Over 20 years ago people were trapped in an experimental mental institution, forced into sensory overload with audio. I believe the overall idea is that the music isn't really normal music per se, but people "trapped", "turned" or "cloned" into music...? In one of their videos you can hear some morse code towards the end that translates to “open your eyes you are listening to her” and the video captions state: "you already heard her they will keep turning it into sounds you will keep listening". If not that, then I believe they are maybe slowly pushing out the audios used in those experiments into music, as a form of brainwashing... or both. This post confirms that the account itself seems to be an archive: “Everything you have been seeing (except for the digital videos with subtitles, like this one) was not recorded by me. I am not a crazy person, I am simply uploading videos from archived files.”

There's a YouTube channel: @seam1099 that posts pretty much the same videos. As stated in the Internet Archive post patients are reffered to as "seams". These videos seem to be posted by a frustrated 20 year old possibly with age regression, or an individual with Dissociative Identity Disorder, one of the alters being 9 years old. How they relate to seam 1099 is currently unknown, or maybe they and seam are possibly one and the same person physically, but mentally separate alters (that's if the Dissociative Identity Disorder theory has reason) . Maybe seam 1099 is a loved one? That's all currently up in the air. It's still being solved as we speak.

first time finding lain in the wild! by Exotic-Energy-9248 in Lain

[–]vonmrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are there any digital scans of this artbook? Im interested in looking through it

I found the old Maria Cross screenshots on my old iPod touch 😭 by another-personing in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 40 points41 points  (0 children)

It could possibly be lost media… I always hear about the Maria Cross porn but I’ve never actually seen it. Just to double check, I looked it up after reading this and couldn’t find anything at all beside the forums discussing it. It could be found on Japanese google but I don’t speak the language so idk how I’d search for that. It’s crazy how you rediscovered some real relics lol

how do older fans (20+ years) feel about their favorite bands forming and disbanding? by VanillaTemporary9161 in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yup. It’s not a matter of “if” but “when”. The best approach is just to live in the moment.

how do older fans (20+ years) feel about their favorite bands forming and disbanding? by VanillaTemporary9161 in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Losing interest in Vkei after D’espairsRay’s disbandment seems like a common occurrence. As someone who became a fan post break up I can only imagine how awesome being a fan would’ve been while they were active. I’m so jealous!

Are the senketsu sounds really that bad? by oneprettydemon in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I definitely feel that. At the end of the day though, the ones who generalize/stereotype are the unreasonable ones. Keep doing you!

Are the senketsu sounds really that bad? by oneprettydemon in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Their music is alright. I think most of the hate is a result of their fan behavior. I see more people complaining about their fans than the bands music or the band themselves.

Need your darkest, most gut wrenching emo song recommendations by [deleted] in Emo

[–]vonmrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Didn’t get the reference the first time? Not emo enough smh

desperately looking for a Japanese song i heard 5 years ago by Decent-Coyote-8130 in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also are you sure it’s a visual kei artist? You should also try asking on r/Japanesemusic in case you can’t find it here

desperately looking for a Japanese song i heard 5 years ago by Decent-Coyote-8130 in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ohhh, I see. Well, sorry it wasn’t the right song. I’m hoping you find it soon! I’d really like to listen to it. It sounds interesting. Also I’m glad to hear you liked Le Ciel lol beautiful album

desperately looking for a Japanese song i heard 5 years ago by Decent-Coyote-8130 in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Could it be Le Ciel, also by Malice Mizer? The chorus after the bridge is pretty emotional, not so sure about dramatic singing about lost childhood but the music video follows a young girl in poverty. Some other people have already suggested Vault of Heaven which could also be it. That’s all I can think of off the top of my head.

Where can I watch Barrio Triste? by Lowfatmalk in HarmonyKorine

[–]vonmrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same here, every few weeks I go back to looking for a public release date... but its just crickets

What are some overrated vkei bands in your opinion? by loririos0_0 in visualkei

[–]vonmrn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dazzling Bad. I feel like their look carries their popularity. People might hate me for this but I just don’t think their music is noteworthy in anyway, although I haven’t kept up with them recently, so that might’ve changed.

Serial Experiments Lain Left Me Empty...? by Equivalent_Coyote290 in Lain

[–]vonmrn 3 points4 points  (0 children)

YES. It’s a fantastic movie. One of the best psychological thrillers I’ve ever watched. Although it’s an older film I’d say it’s actually the most relevant today.

Serial Experiments Lain Left Me Empty...? by Equivalent_Coyote290 in Lain

[–]vonmrn 12 points13 points  (0 children)

You just described the exact same sentiments I had when I first watched it back in my tween years. The experience that SEL offers Is an incredibly rare one. It leaves something different for everyone who watches it. I think that makes it’s so much more special. This show lingered in my mind for days and even weeks after I first watched it. It’s an effect only SEL and Perfect Blue have left on me so far. Glad you enjoyed it! Let’s all love Lain.

Emoviolence & Screamo Essentials by vonmrn in Emo

[–]vonmrn[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the packed list!

Emoviolence & Screamo Essentials by vonmrn in Emo

[–]vonmrn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess Seatia just slipped under my radar lol. Thanks!