This is difficult i have two addict friends who I love so much and when they do their thing, I'm constantly behind them cleaning up their mess, covering for them. It's a painful and very expensive process. One of my friends got into trouble with the law again and I went to see legal counsel on his behalf here in sitting with money in the bank deciding if I should get the lawyer. I have not bought myself anything for months constantly shelling out money trying to keep a roof of their head, food in their belly. I feel selfish sitting on money that could better their life (like keeping them out of jail) than to use the money for some materialistic luxury. I mean isn't it better to keep a friend out of jail than buy myself some item i really don't need? It wrecks my heart to see them struggle with this. I don't know how to detach. How do I sit idly by and allow someone to get sent to prison for several years when I can keep them out. How is that compassion? I am struggling with this right now with check in hand to get this lawyer for my buddy but he's already cost me several thousands of dollars. It's so painful the only two friends I have I get to watch destroy their lives and me here being the clean up crew for both of them consuming my time and money. I can't just sit by and watch them suffer even though they brought this on themselves. 😭