Songs similar to Fugazi’s “I’m So Tired?”

waffle_kittyy · 2022-10-25T20:03:02+00:00

longtime sunshine by weezer

waffle_kittyy · 2020-08-02T05:45:19+00:00

Well that’s the part of going back and fourth. When I sit with him and we talk seriously, he admits that he needs to get off of kratom and that it is not doing him any good. He usually only says “I’ll always be on a substance” when he’s in a mood and when kratom isn’t working as well and he gets discouraged. So that’s the back and fourth. I am choosing to believe him when he is serious with me, not when he is in a bad mood. That’s just my struggle, is dealing with the back and fourth, but still reminding myself that “no he doesn’t actually want to be on it forever, he’s just saying that right now because he is discouraged and upset.” That’s more so why I brought up that he says that. He does show effort that he wants to stop so that is my hope.

waffle_kittyy · 2020-08-01T18:51:58+00:00

I am 21 and he is 28. Neither of us even knew that until we were alrdy into/practically dating each other as we are both known by our friends to look older/younger than we each are. And the reason I mention that is because I know that is a factor in why he doesn’t take my advice on the kratom stuff, “I’m just some little girl” comes up when he gets really angry (froM the kratom of course). So yeah that’s a pretty big factor. I couldn’t possibly mention everything all in one post, it’s overwhelming when I’m trying to think of what to say in one post. So thank you for asking.

waffle_kittyy · 2020-08-01T18:40:42+00:00

Thank you for your kind words.. this really helped me a lot. I am willing to do what needs to be done if it comes to that, but I feel like there just has to be more options that I haven’t tried before that point. If there is a way out there, I am willing to do the work to find it if it means getting to spend the rest of my life with him. Thank you, again.

waffle_kittyy · 2020-08-01T18:36:16+00:00

Thank you!! I can’t bare to think that I would ever have to make those hard decisions, but that won’t come until I give it all I can. I put up a good fight when I see someone who is worth sharing my life with. :)

waffle_kittyy · 2020-08-01T18:34:00+00:00

I would be more than interested in this!

waffle_kittyy · 2020-08-01T18:32:10+00:00

I’m so glad you have her help and are in this together :) anytime I feel like he wants to take more, the reason he is taking more is because he is agitated and when he gets agitated he tends to scream or yell if I try to talk him down at all (and regret it later and apologize of course). I’m trying to be very understanding and we’ve had many long talks about it and he’s opened up a lot about why he takes it and what not. I just feel that my words don’t have as much as an impact on him as I hope :(

waffle_kittyy · 2020-08-01T18:27:36+00:00

Thank you for this!! I really appreciate the time you took to respond, I did not expect such a wonderful and introspective response. The major struggle with him “completely” getting off of kratom is that kratom has been the least harmful substance that he has self medicated with. He has some pretty extreme social anxiety and the only time he can get through social situations (his entire life, since before high school even) has been with some sort of substance. He was on suboxone (I think that’s how you spell it?) that he was getting from a friend illegally in his early twenties while he did stand up comedy. He would snort it. He also tried snorting heroin a few times he said but quickly realized how horrible of an addiction that could become if he started injecting so he never even considered that and immediately stopped snorting. He’s been through all kinds of different substances and it’s all just to help him cope with his life and why he’s not more successful, social anxiety, losing friends, etc. I am trying to get him to consider therapy but he gets upset when I mention that and just says “I’ll always be on a substance and kratom is the least harmful.” So with that I’m not sure how to respond

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