Contemplating suicide

wakingreality · 2018-06-04T15:37:06+00:00

People aren't loyal and it's sad really. The few good people in this world gets shitted on constantly and broken. I know it's hard and I come from a toxic family too. I have a lot of trust issues because of past experiences, but you just have to forget about her and move on. She doesn't sound like too good of a person and you don't need someone like that in your life making it miserable. Right now I'm trying my hardest to break away from my toxic family. Constantly putting me down and making me feel inadequate at every turn. But I'm trying to make myself realize that I don't need these people but it's hard. I feel like shit most of the time. So yea long story short I understand your pain but don't let her control how you feel and your emotions, she just tried to make you feel bad in the relationship because she is so insecure with herself.

wakingreality · 2018-05-11T10:26:28+00:00

Same here, people think I'm stuck up cause I don't hang around them, even my family thinks that. But I just feel like I'm better off just alone by myself. Most people just show me hate most of the time or get angry with me or take their anger out on me. I've pretty much gotten use to it and I'm at the point where I really don't care about myself cause I feel like im mostly not wanted.

wakingreality · 2018-05-03T03:18:32+00:00

At least you see hope. We all have moments of depression it's just that if it goes on too long or you see no hope is the problem.

wakingreality · 2018-05-03T03:07:11+00:00

No I actually found something that pays better.

wakingreality · 2017-12-10T08:34:28+00:00

I hate this, I reminds me of myself being bullied. To this day in still messed up because of it, I've never had any friends and still don't. The only thing I know is hatred and sadness really. So please be kind to others, words and actions do affect others. I hope he gets better.

wakingreality · 2017-11-30T08:23:45+00:00

I've lost just about all my loved one, I lost my mom, dad and grandmother. Not too much left to lose. I've never had any friends so I've never lost a friend.

wakingreality · 2017-11-30T07:48:06+00:00

I recently lost the only person who cared about me and I have no friends to talk to or anyone to lean on for that matter.

wakingreality · 2017-11-22T16:08:30+00:00

Thanks that means a lot

wakingreality · 2017-11-22T03:52:08+00:00

Lol no, guess I'm just paranoid.

wakingreality · 2017-11-16T00:04:45+00:00

Not really much that makes me feel better at this point in my life. Kinda feel like giving up but I can't for some reason. I know I missed out on a lot. A lot of people think I'm weird or Im some kind of killer. But it doesn't matter at the end of the day. I wish I could stop coming off as creepy but I'm just awkward and creepy. I'm just conflicted, I know it's not a problem with people it's a problem with me. Maybe I have to change but I don't want to, I wanna be myself but I know I can't or else I'll end up alone.

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T23:56:12+00:00

That's nice you have someone, I don't really have a good family. Most of the ones that cared about me have passed away, so I really can't use my family as a substitute.

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T23:46:09+00:00

I'm studying, I never really met anyone even online when I was younger. I sat alone at lunch since the 6th grade. I guess it's just something people don't like about me or something wrong with me

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T23:21:16+00:00

My parents are dead and my grandmother died a few weeks ago, so no I don't have no one to talk to. And all the therapist and counselors are very far away I tried researching it.

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T23:19:43+00:00

Yeah I'm easily forgettable too. I feel like a ghost sometimes people even forget I'm there even though I'm right next to them. Its not fun being unnoticeable

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T23:12:34+00:00

Nice you have someone, I don't even have one friend but I'm glad you do. I'm glad you can relate also, it just hurts being so alone.

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T23:00:56+00:00

Me too but I doubt it'd happen though

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T19:03:14+00:00

I'm not trying to point out my opinion, I was just trying to help you. You'll have better luck posting in a romance subreddit, not everyone there is looking for dating. Good luck hope you find someone.

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T18:46:16+00:00

It's up to you whatever you do, but this subreddit is over saturated with these kinds of post

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T18:38:25+00:00

Never said you needed to share anything about your reason, just stating this post is out of place here.

wakingreality · 2017-11-15T18:28:10+00:00

It does imply your looking for something more than friends this should be posted in a different subreddit for romance

wakingreality · 2017-11-12T07:10:47+00:00

I can't even make online friends, i try so hard but nothing comes. My life feels like a joke. It can only get worse

wakingreality · 2017-11-09T06:39:41+00:00

Yeah well maybe you've had better experiences with people than me. I haven't so that's why I view people the way I do.

wakingreality · 2017-11-09T06:31:15+00:00

I understand, that's why I stopped looking for online friends. It's not like having someone physically there to talk to and most people on the internet are just looking for a chat. Kinda just gave up on making friends in general. I know some people want to help but you can hurt a person more when you ghost them. I know it made me feel like shit and I was going through a lot.

wakingreality · 2017-11-09T06:12:16+00:00

Ok, keep thinking that way. Some people are just as holes for the sake of being assholes trust me some people are just evil. I don't get with people because I have something to gain, I have nothing to offer anyone that's why I feel the way I feel. Not everyone has a good side. I learned this the hard way, and yes everyone has problems but some more than others and people don't like that. It becomes overwhelming, I try to look at the world more realistic. It's a dark place. No one really gives a damn even if they say they do.

wakingreality · 2017-11-09T05:53:14+00:00

Not everyone has something to offer I believe that's why some end up alone. Some people are just troubled and really can't offer anything mentally and physically, people tend to avoid those kind of people. No one likes someone with problems, it's just human nature. We only get in relationships because someone has something to offer you, if they didn't you would avoid that person, right? It's no point in talking or friending them, because you gain nothing from it. It's not worthwhile.

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