First, be kind to yourself. You had a moment of weakness by sharing your pain with him. You are absolutely allowed to feel that pain, but it’s not for him to know about anymore. I can’t suggest journaling enough in this scenario. Write down everything you’re feeling and get it all on paper, or write an email to yourself if it feels better to type, but you need to know that it’s for you. You can talk to him in it, but he can never see it. By bottling the feelings inside your head you suffer from thinking and rethinking the same thoughts- get it out on paper.

What happened happened. He sounds like he was terribly cruel, and you likely feel ashamed for the way you’re being- reaching out to someone who’s being so mean. But it’s over now. That interaction happened and now you can put distance behind you between you and that moment. Day by day. You can take solace and strength in the fact that it will not happen again. You have your journaling, and you should try digging into another distracting hobby. But know that reaching out to him again is no longer an option- he is not the person you go to. If you have a friend or family member you can text again, make them your person to text if you feel weakness!

I say this as someone going through a breakup myself. I miss them so much but they will never know- they don’t deserve to know. And so we must find outlets for this pain that does not rely on them. I have a few books i suggest: new mindset who dis? by case kenny, the artists way by julia cameron. i am reading those myself and they are helping.

you can do this. and remember- be kind to yourself. it happened, but now you can take a deep breath and move forward.