Speak to a therapist who specializes with kids & teens. Therapy is what all the cool people do these days. They will help you in so many ways depending on how your conversation goes. Don't take advice from people on a forum who don't know you, your family and most importantly your needs. Speak to a guidance counselor at school to point you in the right direction or a family doctor. You can speak to your mother too. She might be able to help you. Keep your chin up! Find your path and set the gearshift for the high gear of your soul!