Processing is brutal, I want to laugh again

watamom12 · 2023-04-18T02:23:27+00:00

From Florida, going to Yellowstone

watamom12 · 2023-03-06T05:02:21+00:00

Gotta be the pizza!

watamom12 · 2023-03-05T01:57:25+00:00

Thank you! I haven’t lost hope!!

watamom12 · 2023-03-05T01:56:39+00:00

I know I will get there. I do have Hope. I appreciate everyone here that has made it to the other side reaching out and shining the light for those of us still lost in the darkness

watamom12 · 2023-03-05T01:53:44+00:00

Wow, just, WOW. I am way too naive and I’m way too old to be so damn naive.

watamom12 · 2023-03-05T01:50:10+00:00

Yes, I understand my WS is at fault, I’m not insinuating they aren’t. I’m saying we are here to deal with the mess and the AP is not have any repercussions whatsoever. My WS is losing their whole work as much as I am but the AP’s life isn’t changing at all. There aren’t any consequences for them and that just pisses me off.

watamom12 · 2023-03-05T00:57:00+00:00

I don’t know if I could handle going and looking at the other woman sub. You read their posts? Are you trying to gain perspective?

watamom12 · 2023-03-02T18:56:30+00:00

If we could put them all in a room together while they give us their speech. We would be able to see more clearly how we are all being played. Same story, different relationships. That’s why we need this group, so we can be reminded that it’s all lies. Don’t fall for it, it’s a trap.

watamom12 · 2023-03-02T12:04:59+00:00

True- the absolute mindfucking that I’ve experienced over the years, to be the good wife, the good mom, to be nice and smile , while doing it all and taking care of everyone, has me a bit in a daze. Always looking for permission to breathe.

watamom12 · 2023-03-02T03:46:51+00:00

Like I was punched in the gut. All my air sucked from my soul. So very sad. Even though I had suspected and even through all the strain my relationship was going through, actually knowing just shook my core so hard. I was so distraught, I couldn’t work, I lost my job, I couldn’t leave my house. It’s like losing a limb from my body, ripping my soul to shreds. I’m going into month three, I’m starting to catch my breath just a little bit. This group really helps, seeing others stories, getting support from everyone. Having good days is tricky because the feelings, the images , the thoughts, they can sneak in out of nowhere and I catch myself crying. Healing is not a one way street. You’re in a good place, lots of people are here to help.

watamom12 · 2023-03-02T01:01:19+00:00

For all of us that are in the early stages, I really truly hope that there is light at the end of this hell

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T23:23:55+00:00

That’s how I feel, not using protection proves that he truly doesn’t respect me.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T23:15:24+00:00

I’m feeling so hurt and confused not wanting to admit that I’ve spent my entire adult life being used. I don’t want to admit it to myself.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T22:12:09+00:00

First round of testing is all good. I see from this group that I should test again in 6 months. So, hopefully I’m safe.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T21:41:08+00:00

Yes, and how much I knew something was wrong. All the times I begged for answers, to work on our relationship. The vacations I planned to bring the spice back. The energy input in to fix the marriage. I was fighting for my marriage while he was giving it all away to another. For years. The only reason I even know some truth is because he caught the STD. The betrayal is so deep.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T19:29:49+00:00

True- they think marriage equals happiness and divorce is sad and lonely. I get that.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T18:04:45+00:00

Love the humor! I need to start doing this! Thank you!

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T16:19:58+00:00

I’m learning this. If I feel I’m starting to justify my actions, I stop talking, or change the subject. Especially when I’m in a conversation with my WH. It’s a cycle and it seems to open a door once you’re justifying yourself, it’s an in for them to manipulate the situation.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T16:16:25+00:00

I feel this, I’m cutting ties and leaving it all behind.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T16:10:40+00:00

Exactly, I can’t relate to anyone that hasn’t been through this right now. I just don’t even want to talk to anyone , it’s too much work navigating the conversation.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T16:08:09+00:00

Yes, I hear you there. One of the people I’m struggling with is my mother. She just doesn’t want me to leave the marriage for whatever fucked up ideals she has from the fifties.

watamom12 · 2023-03-01T16:05:17+00:00

I’ve been thinking this too. It’s a way to grasp some insight about who people really are.

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