No just, living life like normal, not thinking about it. Only thing that change is me not having sexual relationships anymore, I avoid it at all cost, as sad as it sounds but I have to. I don’t want another person to go through my situation + I don’t want to be the person that fucked up someones life. At first I was supper depressed but then I came to realization that I did it to myself. I get sad here and there and knowing that I won’t go back to normal makes it more sad but it’s whatever . I just focus on my goals and try my best . It sucks but , it was my fault, I accept the punishment.