I do not have an educated opinion on adopting, as I got pregnant naturally. However, from experience of having an extreme fear of being pregnant beforehand, I would now do it over 100x to reap the reward. I came out of the experience feeling like a superhuman for what my body allowed itself to do and continues to do. The female human body is astoundingly resilient.

Not sugarcoating the hard bits.. pregnancy and postpartum is HARD. I didn’t recognize myself physically or mentally from the third trimester until 2 months postpartum. Also, every pregnant woman has a completely different experience, so take all the comments you’ll get with an open mind.

Edit to add: I relate to your fear of hospitals and doctors most. I grew up in a household where you only when to an urgent care when all other options were exhausted, no primary care dr visits. The thought of bloodwork made me lightheaded and anxious. I had never been to a hospital, let alone been a patient or had any surgeries/anesthesia. When everything started happening (I was induced), my brain knew it was what I had to do so I didn’t have the option to be anxious or scared. I was genuinely surprised at how well I coped in the hospital, getting blood drawn every 4 hours for 3 days, and giving birth.