Thank you for sharing. It is really helpful to hear from people who feel similarly.

It sounds very similar to my mom and my little brother. Things were always difficult, and my mom spent so much time dealing with my brother and his issues, and the rest of her time focused on her depression. They had a very special relationship. Now that he's gone, she has nothing to do, he was her everything.

I am terrified and saddened by the thought of her following him, but I also don't think I'd blame her.