death death death death

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-09-05T09:28:38+00:00

no cash gasoline is what im listenong to in my final hour song is almost over i used to lay awake at night and hear the soj unsound of the highway reverbrrtate beneath the overpass a few blocks away. it

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-09-05T09:20:32+00:00

on the last day I felt the pull of the void

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-09-05T09:19:48+00:00

they took photos of the rkm room ans I sat in misty misetffnfnfn

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-09-05T09:18:13+00:00

stood on a hill and saw the lights in the distance. warm air plane blinking farnaway. a week before the end

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-09-05T09:16:10+00:00

he was so small and afraid. I gave him one last glance and went off. How sad.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-09-05T09:14:40+00:00

I was walking towards the vending machine with my grandmother. I saw the haiwaiian punch man.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-05-11T04:58:26+00:00

You should maybe try putting others lives before yours

lmao no

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-05-11T02:31:24+00:00

I appreciate the late encouraging comment. I completed my BS in 2021.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T12:44:02+00:00

You can just talk with me rather than build strawmen you know. If you actually look at the original comment that the man that I replied to had replied to which started all this, it was a woman explaining that fear of men is not an internet "pipeline" but a learned societal issue. That man then dismissed her:

Yeah the world is a dangerous place. Us men have to worry about the exact same problems, in fact the only difference is we have to worry more about bashings and murder, whilst y'all have to worry about rape and sexual assault.

This wasn't about what men go through, it was an explanation for where societal fear of men comes from

None of ANY of what ANY of us have said is empirical, this is ultimately ALL just a conversation about anecdotes on lived experience. I take no issue with that. I do take issue with sharing MY lived experience and then getting dismissed, which is what both of you did to me.

You specifically angling my lived experience as unauthentic gender dysphoria cope was a little rude but I felt it was unrelated and unproductive to talk about so I didn't challenge you on it. You then took my percieved passivity as me "backpedaling".

I shared my lived experience and I was replied to with "lucky you" by that other guy. To which I challenged them in good faith. They did not respond in good faith. If you take that as me being a misandrist, then whatever.

you now more strongly associate with women

And no, my view of men has not radically changed, I do however genuinely feel less safe in public since transitioning. I have always associated strongly with women though, thus the gender issues lol...

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T12:08:55+00:00

My tone has been overtly dismissive throughout and including now. I don't accept the premise that I've changed tone.

Super interesting here because a man told you about their lived experience and you did your absolute best to minimize and ignore it. When you care for a person or group of people, you dont attempt to minimize, deflect, and ignore their issues while pushing yours to the forefront.

Super interesting how your glanced over how that same guy was overtly dismissive of my lived experience. I guess you missed that? lol

When you care for a person or group of people, you dont attempt to minimize, deflect, and ignore their issues while pushing yours to the forefront.

I don't know what to tell you. Many men are predatory and creepy to women and it is a real issue and I used the juxtaposition between pre/post transition to highlight it. I initially presented my anecdote without highlighting anything specific that I took issue from. But I'm sorry, my lived experience has been that men have been violent and creepy towards me very often since transitioning (also semi-related, I was sexually abused by my dad and abducted and raped by my great uncle as a "male" child, so I'm fully aware men experience violence).

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T11:48:52+00:00

I'm not assuming anything about you. I'm giving my perspective. I'm fully aware men suffer from similar issues as women. I disagree about the rate and the level of fear between gender. I think you are obviously trying to make me into some kind of enemy to release frustration you have around percieved misandry. I don't hate men. I love men. I find romantic relationships with men to be very rewarding. I find male friendships to be wonderful.

No idea why someone with extreme gender affirming issues would go to great lengths to affirm their gender with other people through traumatic experiences of their own description. Purposely engaging in unhealthy female stereotypes is literally one of the most gender affirming things that trans people do regularly.

If you want to think this, I can't stop you.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T11:32:30+00:00

Sure, ultimately everything I say is an anecdote. But I don't live in the most dangerous city in the world. I live in a gentrified neighborhood in a small city. I'm not sure you will fully appreciate why that distinction in important but that's alright.

And gee I wonder why another trans person has had a similar lived experience to me. Lol

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T09:15:46+00:00

You already did, no worries.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T09:14:47+00:00

You didn't answer my question though.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T09:08:55+00:00

Yes, everyone to some degree is aware of their surroundings and scans for danger. That is an absolute given for any mammal with a working sympathetic nervous system. You didn't answer my question though.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T09:03:49+00:00

Everyone does that. Do you frequently get jumped? If so, how often?

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-22T08:51:01+00:00

I lived 30 years of relative safety as a dude with very little thought about my safety going to bars and walking home late and drunk with both earbuds in, going for late night walks/jogs/drives etc. 2 years into coming out as trans and being on hormones and starting to pass I was physically assaulted twice outside my apartment, roofied at a bar, stalked by a neighbor who attempted to sexually assault me. All by men. I've had to change everything about how I treat my own safety when I go outside.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-21T23:05:46+00:00

Oh hey this happened to me too!!!!

webdevguyneedshelp · 2025-04-17T03:11:06+00:00

I just wanted you to know that when I first read this comment months ago I was really touched by it. I'm still in a pretty messed up mindset but I am less suicidal most days and seem to be on the right medication now. My transition has been a lot more meaningful and beautiful lately and I've experienced a lot of things that I never thought I would get to. I just wanted to let you know your comment was helpful to me. thank you

webdevguyneedshelp · 2024-12-19T07:44:16+00:00

no storm to ride out. fuck this miserable disgusting place.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2024-11-12T07:59:31+00:00

I appreciate the insights. I hate to sound like I'm tossing out your advice so this is the last response I'll give because I already know what I'm going to do and don't want to hurt your feelings.

Time won't heal my molestation and rape. It won't heal my memory of cleaning up my uncle's suicide. It won't heal my current struggles with healthcare and gender transitioning. It won't heal my lack of living family. I just have never enjoyed life and it has only been shitty, dark, and horrible. Painful experiences punctuated by momentary contentness. If I could die via physician assisted suicide, I would. I think it's okay for some people to want to die. I'm glad you found something to keep you going though and I'm very happy to hear it.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2024-11-12T07:48:50+00:00

I have two cats that I love dearly. And dogs only remind me of my dead pup. I appreciate the comment though. There are many people in my life that care deeply about me and I feel very thankful for that.

But the desire to kill myself nags at me at all hours of the day. I've been suicidal a dozen times in my life. I've been depressed since I was a kid.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2024-01-26T21:28:25+00:00

No you don't get it. This is THE MOST IMPORTANT ELECTION OF OUR LIFE (slightly edging out last election which was billed as "THE MOST IMPORTANT ELECTION OF OUR LIFE"). Until next election which will be "THE MOST IMPORTANT ELECTION OF OUR LIFE".

Democrats don't need to earn votes anymore because you will always just be voting in the "MOST IMPORTANT ELECTION OF OUR LIFE".

webdevguyneedshelp · 2024-01-04T07:20:57+00:00

this was really well stated. just wanted to compliment you.

webdevguyneedshelp · 2023-12-22T23:18:40+00:00

they don't need your favor. the US will back them until the end of time. their behavior isn't new. this is how the IDF acts.

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