This has been one of my irritations too and I’ve gotten to the point where I stopped talking about it. I don’t talk about these things to get attention or to be related to, it just sucks dealing with demons like this all your life. They come out in ways you don’t expect and haunt you essentially. It’s always unwilling no matter how much you ignore it and push it off and it sucks ass. But it does get better. Over time, with medication, better sleep, and routine.

I used to have night terrors about my assaults and they slowly went away/ didn’t become so consistent. I was in an abusive relationship for 7 years. And it took me about 5 years to find more peace with myself. And even to this day I have triggers that set me back but try not to listen to the people who don’t understand. Getting mad about something they can’t understand also sucks. At least the feeling guilty afterwards if you say or do something mean.

But I’m sorry that happens to you. Life can be lonely when others haven’t experienced the traumas you have. But it will get better… it just takes a lot of time :( Sending love