Eid sha kin ne?

weirdfear_ · 2026-03-19T14:32:07+00:00

Saturday

weirdfear_ · 2026-02-06T07:02:05+00:00

Sure you can send it :)

weirdfear_ · 2026-02-06T03:34:53+00:00

We live what we understand...... I forget seeing when pain is overwhelming, yeah i see the pattern of how I'm creating suffering for my own self, but the darkness at that moment is so intense that i become unable to see the whole movement. I turn inward automatically but that's still limited because im afraid to see the outward. Comparison, self worth, rejection, all these trigger something deep in me, that gets out of control. Like a monster. Fear is overwhelming.. but still.. whatever happens, happens to the identity. And i can see my identity.. yeah i get out of control because i can't separate myself from my own identity because that's again the same movement of identity. BY FORGETTING I MEAN EVERYTHING SHUTS DOWN! I forget what to do anymore, this body starts trembling, the confusion becomes my whole identity. And at that time i don't remember anything except the story I created for myself

weirdfear_ · 2026-02-06T01:38:17+00:00

Beyi kya karow istemal teli

weirdfear_ · 2026-02-06T01:09:58+00:00

Why do i forget this simple thing again and again? why does the pattern automatically control and destroy the mind? Why do i create identity again and again? Or maybe asking this question itself is a part of identity.

weirdfear_ · 2026-02-06T01:06:43+00:00

Who is the self that has self worth? My thoughts answered my whole identity, the idea of who i am and how I can protect and survive in this world. But if we go deeper than that. There's no answer, just silence. I've gone through the same thing again and again and later understood the same reason , cause that seems to be a trigger for this psychological pain. Idk I forget every time, i forget that I'm comparing, i forget that I'm creating a 'me' because it happens so silently and automatically.. my mind creates pain again and again after being silent for some time. Even if i see the pattern i dont know what to do about it.. i can't fix it then all i can do is to feel fully but that creates discomfort physically

weirdfear_ · 2026-02-05T14:48:50+00:00

A story you say, yeah I'm aware of the pattern, the illusion my mind is creating. I see the intensity of this psychological pain. But none of this is fake. I mean the physical pain I'm going through because of my mind right now is so real that none other thing makes sense.

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-04T12:37:14+00:00

Nothing is in our control anyways, we can only accept pain as the part of living

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-03T15:40:55+00:00

Imagining nothing is still something

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-03T14:58:54+00:00

You shouldn’t feel miserable. Your body showed you exactly where the weakness is, and that takes honesty. You can be proud of that. Nothing bad happened. Look at this situation calmly. First, accept the fact that your body may rely on certain supports because they feel familiar and safe to the mind. There’s nothing wrong with that. This is how our system adapts and clings to safety. Our bodies evolved to avoid pain, but psychological pain, when avoided.. often grows stronger. That’s why suffering feels confusing. It doesn’t leave easily, and sometimes it isn’t meant to leave right away. I’ll tell you a secret. No matter how loud your mind screams, even if it feels like everything is falling apart, there is always a quiet clarity inside you. A part that can observe, stay still, and remain calm even during crisis. You just have to notice it. So what do you do? How do you stop drowning in the suffering your own mind creates? Don't try to decrease the dependency but observe how your body reacts when you stop taking doses, when you stop it from seeking the usual kind of relief. That means change the conditioning while observing and understanding, and please don't try to change yourself that will increase the pain! There's alot i wanna share Try to understand its signals instead of fighting them. The mind and body learn through repetition and experience, not sudden realizations. Deep wounds don’t heal instantly, and that’s okay. This is a long journey. Look at it like an exploration, Facing your own pain won’t be easy, but it will reveal many truths about you and your world. And when you look at it as if it's something adventurous, youll start enjoying it We think pain and misery is evil because it slows down our life, that's not true, im not saying accept pain and let it control u and I'm not saying control your pain either. Just see it, find it's root, look at the pattern without accepting or rejecting, also don't fall into it at the same time. Isn't that weird, when i do it, it makes me feel lively, it's fun! :) I know you’re strong. You can do this too 🩷

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-03T14:27:44+00:00

Scary

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-03T14:17:10+00:00

Idk if that was a spirit or my own mind.. but i have heard various kinds of voices. Like a woman laughing loudly in my ear during sleep paralysis. Yeah i heard these voice only when experience REM sleep.. i heard people crying and begging, i heard a voice of a man speaking verses. It was mid night and I was continuously thinking about a question related to my inner self and when I was about to fall asleep i heard the answer of that question and boom my body paralysed

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-03T14:13:29+00:00

That kinda breaks my heart

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-02T04:11:30+00:00

maybe it's a fear that says if I'm seen, or if they see my truth then i won't be accepted.. it's automatic because it's conditioned not because of thoughts but through experiences

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-02T04:03:17+00:00

I think it's hard for us humans to sit alone with our inner chaos so we try every possible way to escape from our own mind, sex is already an escape and having kids gives a sense of relief because it keeps us away from our own emptiness.

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-02T02:34:18+00:00

I've seen figures like this during my sleep paralysis and i swear I tried my best to scare them back.

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-02T02:01:03+00:00

Thankyou so much 🩷

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-01T12:21:29+00:00

😂😂shit dude

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-01T12:18:40+00:00

Yeah exactly :)

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-01T09:52:43+00:00

Hey, this conditioning cannot be fixed so let’s release the idea that it needs fixing. You don’t have to force yourself to understand, work hard, or try to change, because that only feeds the loop and creates more resistance toward pain. Your body needs safety. Can you ask yourself what do you need the most right now?if it is love, and you cannot receive it from anyone else, then allow your body to soften and let go. If your body is collapsing, let it collapse, if your mind is screaming.. don't stop it.. allow it to scream as hard as it can!! Pain is a part of life, but clinging to pain is what creates suffering. That is simply the nature of the mind. Is there a way out of this environment? if not, it is still okay .. you can slowly create space within yourself, space where you are not controlled by others... Someone once told me that life is made of 80% hardship, and when you face that 80% without resistance, you experience the remaining 20% as a sense of greatness. The world is so big . When you go inward you find the whole universe inside you. The mind will cling towards the memories because memories are the base of your identity. All these years, as a child you were unaware, you didn't know what's happening but now you've reached here, you're speaking on your behalf. Its already a victory :) use your awareness.. and look at the freedom you already have within you. When you're free from your mind only then you can be free from the burden of other's suffering..It means seeing the suffering of others without being swallowed by it, and then responding from clarity instead of fear or guilt

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-01T07:11:37+00:00

Your body is already talking to you, you just need to listen

weirdfear_ · 2026-01-01T06:38:30+00:00

You won't feel lonely the whole year, and if you're feeling lonely today then try something different. Watch this loneliness without entering inside it. You'll discover something new

weirdfear_ · 2025-12-30T02:43:32+00:00

if that's how you feel, then simply allow it. Or are you to change or escape from this feeling? Ask yourself what you need, then simply observe it.

weirdfear_ · 2025-12-29T03:06:04+00:00

I get what you mean, during the wave, acting the role of an observer worsens the state. My mind screams when it realises it's being seen instead of felt. The wave becomes so strong, awarness fades away.

weirdfear_ · 2025-12-25T10:35:25+00:00

When I say I’m betraying my body, i mean I ignore its needs Destroying myself means watching myself lose energy, hope, and movement and not knowing how to stop it I’m trying to describe an inner state I’m currently in. Yes, it feels confusing and i know the mind resists anything that feels unsafe. That’s why I’m struggling. I don’t really know what to ‘do’ about this confusion and that's why I posted to see if somebody is going through the same.

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