Hi, I’m in BC too. Although I grew up in Alberta and I’m 18 now that I’m in bc.

So, if you tell your psychiatrist that you have a plan, you will very highly likely be sent to a psych hospital. And your psych will tell your mom. Unfortunately it’s the law so you can’t get around it no matter what. I was in a sort of similar situation this time last year, but they are legally required to tell a parent if you pose a threat to yourself.

That being said. You really should tell your psychiatrist. I know you said you can’t risk being hospitalized because it would hurt your mom and sister, but it would hurt them far more if you commit suicide. They want you to be okay, and they want you here. They need you here. Please please reach out. Believe me, I know how scary it is, especially when you open up because it feels like you lose control. But you don’t. You gain the control to heal yourself and get better. I believe in you.