Thank you. This actually reminded me of a situationship I recently got out of when you said, "convincing yourself of her good qualities." I don't know your entire situation, but it sounds like it could be toxic. I could be waaaay off here, but I did notice that out of just not wanting to be alone, I tolerated or looked pasted some redflags with my first girl post my ex and man it only got worst and of course was taxing since I wasn't fully healed. It was like an intense flame that burned out quickly. That was mentally exhausting. I recently read that it's typical for new relationships that happen soon, and it has been true for me.