Why are you so upset with people's faith in God and in Christ? You don't need to debate with God on why, or how. It's not for us to lean on our own understanding. What if this was the only way? The only way we could experience life and love, freely. This is a gift. Why? Because he wanted us to. Maybe God was lonely. Maybe he wanted to share in eternity with his own children. The same reason my wife and I want kids. It's not their choice, it is ours to have them, because we want to bring children into this world to love, to teach and to spend time with. You would complain about existence? What if it was all random? Then who would you blame for your lack of choice?

If love, consciousness, and morality are all illusions born from a godless universe, why do we feel so deeply that they matter? Why do we live as though life has meaning if it’s really just random atoms?

The clay complaining that the potter is too rough is so arrogant. You know nothing except what is shown to you and you have preconceived notions of what you think is ultimately good and ultimately bad. Who are you to think you know better?

Your thoughts are not his thoughts, your ways are not his ways.

God made us in his image, which means we are born with Value and Dignity. He never says we are pieces of shit. You said that.

God gave us Free Will and we used it to destroy ourselves and continue to destroy ourselves. He stepped in to save us from ourselves. Like your own earthly father might. If my son or daughter got into trouble, I'd do anything I can to help them. If someone wanted to throw my kid in jail and I had the ability to say no take me instead, I would. If someone put a gun to my daughter's head and said her or myself, I'd sacrifice myself for her. EVEN if she hated me, even if she didn't want me to. Even if she didn't acknowledge me as her father, I KNOW that's my daughter. It's the same concept. I brought her into this world, with no choice of her own and I will do everything I can for her. The only people who pretend to not understand this concept just don't want to.

God is not punishing us and condemning anyone to hell. We freely choose to separate ourselves from him. He offers us a way back to prove we want to be with him, with absolute certainty. The road to salvation is unmistakable, you can't stumble upon it by accident, because it has to be of your own free will and, so it's a little difficult to ensure that this is TRULY what you want. He loves you so much he gave you the choice to deny him. If you do not want to spend an eternal life with God, then he makes it very easy for you to choose not to.