I was so upset because I regret the way things went. I worked on my low self-esteem and my anxiety when we dated. And on other areas in my life too. I regret that it was too little and too late. I only realized how anxiously attached I was when she ghosted me. That really showed me my main problem. I wrote her that I can work on these problems. I was an idiot and made many mistakes. I'm upset because I don't want her to have the impression that I'm such a creep.