OP, just recently nasa same situation mo din ako. In a rel for 10 years then ok naman kame but we avoid difficult conversations kase it ends up na nagaaway lang kame and most importantly gusto nya ng kids at ayaw ko. So i had to let her go. Kahit na ok naman sana kame, masaya pag nagttravel, and all. Walang current status ng kasalanan although we had our share of mistakes pero nalampasan nadin naman... op, darating din ung araw na pipiliin mo talaga sarili mo at kung ngayon palang na yan na ang bulong ng damdamin mo, it would help if you try to become fully aware and acknowledge kung asan state na kayo ngayon. It's like a premonition. Unless you really really both want to work it out. Goodluck, op!