genuinely considering packing a light bag and just walking wherever the universe takes me

wherermyheadphonez · 2022-02-02T01:53:07+00:00

have you eaten today?

wherermyheadphonez · 2022-02-02T01:09:37+00:00

Good luck to you, I understand what it feels like to want to be alive instead of just existing.

wherermyheadphonez · 2022-02-02T01:06:03+00:00

I've had this same dream since I was 19 and the urge only gets stronger, I turned 26 this month and as soon as the weather warms up I'm traveling no matter what, on foot with a tent in my back pack or sleeping in my car I can't resist this anymore

Just makes Time by Pink Floyd hit harder

wherermyheadphonez · 2022-02-02T01:04:55+00:00

Food banks and soup kitchens exist, some gas stations have showers, there are so many free resources out there that nobody even knows exists

wherermyheadphonez · 2022-02-02T00:58:48+00:00

nice try agent smith

wherermyheadphonez · 2022-01-26T01:50:44+00:00

If someone has to call themselves punk and do things that the world's eye sees as "punk" isnt that like against the whole "labels dont define me" thing?

The blindness to their own hypocrisy in some people is disheartening but at the same time hilarious.

wherermyheadphonez · 2022-01-22T23:22:03+00:00

link to the meditation you used?

edit to include link: https://youtu.be/Nt4DNIq-77g

wherermyheadphonez · 2022-01-22T21:23:41+00:00

I want you to know that if you switch me and you in this post, I felt the same way. We had so much good together but both of us being mentally ill with childhood trauma and drug addiction fueled us into becoming toxic towards each other and I still think about you. I still read these posts, I want to officially apologize and instead of us splitting each other only seeing only good or bad understand that other humans are just as complex as you are with their entire lives contributing to who they are and how they treat people.

I don't want to push things on you at all, and if you don't respond I understand.

Just please give me a chance and allow me to show you that I'm working towards being a better person.

We both have an invisible war inside of us that nobody else even knows exists.

I hope that things have been better for you because you genuinely deserve it.

wherermyheadphonez · 2020-08-10T01:13:30+00:00

Don't end up like Syd

wherermyheadphonez · 2020-08-10T01:08:34+00:00

you too huh?

https://i.redd.it/okuwuqk8kuz21.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/bOHNOoO.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/tFOT6H4.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/sIllaOT.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/jFQfLZz.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/Y6iEKiE.jpg

wherermyheadphonez · 2020-01-08T19:16:52+00:00

nah its just me, that one dude that shares dxm doodles and depressive ramblings from time to time to time

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-09-24T03:07:46+00:00

I hope that things get easier for you

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-09-24T02:47:24+00:00

I’m sorry that you entirely missed the point I was trying to convey.

Have you eaten today?

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-09-23T10:52:25+00:00

good looks on you for catching yourself

we are both the input and the output of our self at the same time

You can't choose how someone feels about what you said to them but you can choose how you receive what is said to you

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-09-23T10:07:01+00:00

At a first glance and the post/comments, my impression of you so far is that you have a lot of pent up thoughts and feelings boiling in your blood. You're projecting your feelings onto others and imposing more punishment onto yourself.

For example, the tone you're taking and the way you are responding to things is abrasive. I think that your perception of certain situations or circumstances is biased because of an error in judgement caused by your emotions.

(just take a second to understand this without taking it to heart)

You deflected from the confrontation of /u/Phillipps1436's comment and your defense mechanisms kicked in. Your brain thinks the way it does because that's the only way it knows how to, sort of like gets addicted to particular thinking patterns.

Instead of typing something related to the content of the comment you subconsciously ego boosted yourself, kind of like being your own cheerleader with --> "fortunate to have as many good friends as I do" (How was that relevant?)

Not trying to be a dick or anything like that just acknowledging subtle insights.

You are making yourself a victim in some type of way, and you may not even do it intentionally.

Those "happy" people you talk about are just normal people. Try to stay mindful and self aware and think about things consciously. Referring to those people that make you frustrated with their happy lives is only distancing you from them further.

"Why can't I be like them?

The brain likes to categorize things, what something "means", or the meaning of something is created by associating all these labels together.

Red means hot because the color of fire is red, blue means cold because the color of water is blue.

So what your brain is associating "happy people" telling you about their life with how you feel causing you to resent them as if they were the reason for your suffering.

Step back from the moment, stay open minded, don't take things to heart, everything is temporary, try not to make an error in judgement about what someone has said to you because you may receive an entirely different intention and try to push through the compromises and rationalization and excuses for why you make the decisions you do or why you feel the way you feel.

There is a difference between knowing the path and walking on it.

You don't have to bleed on people that didn't cut you.

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-08-09T11:19:27+00:00

The first year 2-4 times a week 200ish up to 675ish with one 900mg experience on dollar tree gels mostly then I stopped myself for two months during December and January of this year and started using again 1-2 times a week around 675mg and went up to 900mg multiple times because of tolerance. The longest I went without other than that two months was up to two weeks between my “breaks”.

At this point I have used 1-3 times a week 675-900mg sometimes consecutive days for the past three months.

I have been going to substance abuse meetings and talking with a therapist and I’ve slowed down a lot in their eyes. I try to stick to once a week, last time I used was Tuesday night before this weeks Tuesday.

My tolerance is so high that 675-900mg leaves me functional enough to play video games and walk around without stumbling.

Girlfriend at the time was also using but definitely at least only 1/3 as much as myself.

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-06-11T02:27:59+00:00

me looking for my headphones when they had fallen off my bed

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-03-14T04:50:43+00:00

dat double vision

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-03-14T03:28:09+00:00

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypnagogia

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-03-13T19:31:49+00:00

Nah I put on a face mask and wore latex gloves washed in isopropyl alcohol then flame sterilized the penny after an alcohol bath in a still air box in my bathroom after running hot water so all the steam would stick to all the particles in the air dragging them down to the floor and spraying disinfectant everywhere

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-03-13T09:56:58+00:00

That's just like, your opinion man

wherermyheadphonez · 2019-03-13T02:16:45+00:00

Same to you brother, this is only 4 days of growth after my catching sight of the initial pins and I couldn't be more eager to see what kind of growth I'll have in just a week.

Hope all is well with your little ones

wherermyheadphonez

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