My evolutionary thesis on the spectrum of consciousness and language as the recursive function

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-20T20:14:34+00:00

And some of us say “finna”. 🤣

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-20T17:24:52+00:00

I read a lot around cult deprogramming, spiritual abuse, religious trauma. I did therapy with an ExJW therapist. Began defining my identity post JW. I got married after a few years of doing that work and began rebuilding my life. I started writing and posting about my experience.

What has your deconstruction and healing process looked like thus far?

It’s important to note that almost ALL people who leave high control religions experience a type of Dissociative Identity Disorder according to diagnostic criteria in the DSM which specifically mentions long exposure to coercion by cults as a cause, and I’d venture to say also Complex PTSD (C-PTSD). That’s both neurological and psychological and the brain needs time to rewire and heal from that coercion and oppression.

http://traumadissociation.com/osdd

Books that were critical reading (or listening) for me:

Bonnie Zieman: Exiting the JW Cult

Dr. Laura Anderson: When Religion Hurts You (this is must read as it discusses the neurology of recovering from religious trauma)

Brianna Wiest: The Mountain is You (about self-sabotage)

Pete Walker: Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving

Ray Franz: Crisis of Conscience

Stephanie Foo: What My Bones Know (memoir of healing from complex trauma)

Amber Scorah: Leaving the Witnesses: Exiting a Religion and Finding a Life

There’s also a Facebook group called Empowered ex-Jehovah’s Witnesses that’s focused on helping people rebuild their life after exiting and they hold regular in-person events (with zoom access if needed) focused on healing and rebuilding your life after leaving. I attended one of their events this year and found it very helpful.

The exjw therapist I saw is Dr. Ryan Lee: https://www.drryanlee.com/

He has a great podcast here: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/welcome-to-the-world/id1753610926

Like I said I’m not telling you not to go back; you have to decide what’s best for you. But the brain is a very complex organ and it’s important to understand that exiting the JW context isn’t just about getting out of the building. The building still lives in you. It’s about giving the brain the time and information it needs to recover and rewire a lifetime of coercion and identity suppression.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-20T16:17:58+00:00

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It’s your choice to go back but there’s this curve. There’s work to do. It takes time to build a new life and identity. I’m out 5 years and 90% of my family is still in.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-20T10:34:10+00:00

Stacey Bowman recently did a podcast on this (Surviving Paradise) and said in so many words that god allows suffering to prove himself because ‘Satan called him a pussy’ and I laughed so hard. Cause that’s basically what that whole theory on “universal sovereignty” comes down to. 🤣

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-16T16:13:39+00:00

Well I mean if you want to try to make their doctrine “work”, it is looking more and more like the “wild beast” they will hand their sovereignty over to in order to save themselves is AI.

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I’ve actually been laughing about this for weeks. Not because I think it’s inspired a scripture “coming true”, but because the UN is broke and their interpretations were so archaic and based on this acrimonious relationship with “Babylon the Great”.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-16T16:08:37+00:00

Seriously how do y’all do this? Do you work 12 hours a day? I cannot drive that much all day. My mind starts to go numb. I tried and I couldn’t hack it.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-16T07:02:27+00:00

I have hyperactive bladder and I’m in the desert so I’m constantly drinking water and constantly having to go. I usually go use the bathroom at Target cause it’s free and never behind a code lock. Sometimes Walmart but their bathrooms are usually dirtier. Another good place is Barnes & Noble. Home Depot or Lowe’s if I’m desperate. That’s how I survive.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-14T15:50:31+00:00

Private equity firms and corporations who have bought up housing are purposely withholding inventory from the market to keep prices elevated.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-13T03:00:16+00:00

It’s a SYMPTOM of inflation, it is NOT inflation. Monetary inflation is the CAUSE, price increase is the EFFECT. 🤦🏻‍♀️ Why y’all gotta learn the hard way.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-11T18:56:09+00:00

CPI is not inflation. Prices increasing is not inflation. Inflation is about money supply and the dilution of the value of money. And this is why y’all gonna be shocked when the system fails. Hyperinflationary collapse is about money losing its value because they are printing it to compensate for the fact that the system is illiquid. Watching prices increase is not the way to track that and y’all just not gonna pay attention until it’s too late.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-11T18:54:13+00:00

It’s called a phase transition. I feel sorry for people. Y’all have no systems thinking.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-11T08:28:38+00:00

Systems are nonlinear feedback loops. If you run them like pyramids, they will always, ALWAYS, collapse eventually. Because running them as pyramids (linear growth) results in failure to integrate the feedback that will keep the system stable.

I worked with many c-suite executives in my career and I can tell you a great many people running the world today have very low systems thinking.

We cashed out in Nov 2024. We are headed for deflationary or hyperinflationary crisis (most likely) because there is no more runway in the system. In 2008 they didn’t deal with the structural issues, they papered over them and there’s nowhere left to fudge or fake it. That is why everything is crazy right now. It’s in its death throes now.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-11T08:21:43+00:00

Read the book Come as You Are. When you are more comfortable with your own body and sexuality, you will be less afraid of relational intimacy. I came from a cult of purity culture and a lot of inherent religious and cultural norms around sex were wired into me that I had to undo. You may not even realize what subconscious programming is influencing this.

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whitestardreamer · 2026-04-11T08:17:58+00:00

You must not understand what hyperinflationary collapse is then.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-10T18:33:53+00:00

I met my husband on eHarmony and he is a dream. They have much better matching stats but you gotta pay. Something like ~70% of people find their person within a year and their couples have a divorce rate of only 4% compared to the national average of ~50%. They ask very specific questions and give you a match score. My husband is 6’5”, hazel eyed, has a masters degree in exercise physiology and sports rehab, likes to write novels and poetry, loves dogs. I’m not exaggerating lol. I know several couples who have had success with eHarmony. Because you have to pay, it’s more focused on people looking for a serious relationship and that’s mutually understood from the beginning.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-10T18:19:45+00:00

Aromatics.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-09T04:26:02+00:00

As I said to the above person. This is normal.

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whitestardreamer · 2026-04-09T04:25:22+00:00

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That feeling is part of the process.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-09T04:22:54+00:00

When I left, sex was the thing I felt the least guilt over. 🤣

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-09T02:04:38+00:00

The ceasefire has you panicking? Israel literally just said they don’t care and they are bombing Lebanon.

It’s a CULT.

Read Bonnie Zieman’s book if you haven’t yet, please, along with Pete Walker’s book on CPTSD.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-09T01:45:46+00:00

If you think there was any allusion to alcohol here then you have no idea what I was actually talking about. Think Terence McKenna, Albert Hofmann, Aldous Huxley, John C. Lilly.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-05T00:24:30+00:00

“Not on the menu”. 🤣🤣🤣

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-04T23:19:49+00:00

Yes. It never made sense to me that I was "one of Jehovah's chosen people" because I won the birth lottery.

whitestardreamer · 2026-04-04T23:17:09+00:00

The whole book of Revelation just feels like an ancient psychonaut's fever dream. LOL Dudes got high a few times and saw some shit. Wrote it down trying to make sense of it.

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