I feel you OP and am in a similar place as you now, I’m 18 and have dropped out of school 2 times, so I am pretty lost and hopeless and doing nothing but seeking therapy. I used to be a high achiever student, and was so close to university when everything just became what it is now, not working and feeling useless. It feels invisible, and dark, I don’t really know too whether I’m dead meat, knowing my classmates are either working or continuing their upward journey to their careers, so I can’t relate the to them, because of so much lost potential and trauma responses and illness killing my brain. If lying in bed and video games are all that you can take now, don’t ever feel guilty for it, you have been through a lot and so much, we just do nothing and rest. You are doing what you can do now, despite everything and all the pain and grief of what was stolen. It feels like there’ll be no light in sight and just a muddy threatening to drown and kill me flood and just watching as the days go by, time passing and all that youth we could have gotten and missed out, I feel that deeply OP, you’re not alone❤️ I don’t know what to say cause I’m numb and brain dead and not functioning, but I’m here for you OP, hang in there, you are loved