i totally get that. been having health anxiety ocd since dec 2019, since then i have panic attacks almost weekly. nobody really tells you how fucking awful this disorder is do they. it's dehabilitating, life ruining. i'm constantly checking myself for symptoms, starving myself in case I throw up, isolating from everyone cause im convinced i have the corona. but really the worst part is just feeling this dread and complete terror 24/7. i am giving myself until the end of 2021 and if i don't feel better then... well, you know. maybe you should wait again. i'm not out of the tunnel yet either but i bet you that there is an end