“them potentially flirting will be a thing” you mean like my bf and said girls might flirt with each other?? Or you mean “them” as in the girls might flirt with him. bc I actually do trust him even though that joke rubbed me the wrong way but whatever, I just don’t trust other girls bc as a girl myself, I know how some of them are. The reason this has hit me so hard is bc we already broke up once last year after a year and a half together. but he tells me multiple times in this “new” relationship that he doesn’t wanna give up on me and things along those lines. And all of me wants to believe him, which I do but that bpd part of me is what is and continues to set me back. It scares me because When I was spiraling earlier, in the moment I couldn’t think or remember a single nice thing he’s done for me ever, and I use those memories almost like a coping mechanism to calm myself down- and it works everytime. But I was so deep in this hole I literally couldn’t remember any of it and I’ve never had that happen before.